DOODLEz-

2006-11-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

TV Land Lists 100 Greatest Catchphrases

1. "D'oh" - homer; The Simpsons
2. "Holy crap!" - Frank Barone; Everybody Loves Raymond
3. "How you doin'?" - Joey Tribbiani; Friends
4. "I want my MTV!" - MTV ad
5. "Is that your final answer?" - Regis Philbin; Who Wants To Be A Millionare?
6. "Smile, you're on 'Candid Camera'" - Candid Camera
7. "Tell me what you don't like about yourself" - Nip/Tuck
8. "That's hot"- Paris Hilton; Simple Life
9. "The tribe has spoken" - Jeff Probst; Survivor
10. "The truth is out there" - Fox Mulder; The X-files
11. "You rang?" - Lurch; The Adam's Family
12. "You're fired!" - Donald Trump; The Apprentice

Okie, i know that isn't 100, but i just took out those that i know and used to watch.
=D

2006-11-28T17:33:00.000+08:00

10.30 to 1.00

i awoke to the sound of thunder.
It was gentle- funny, well to me.

wait. okie, maybe it wasn't the thunder. My maid woke me up- i had tuition at 9...
yeah. and the thunder followed nicely after.

My room was kinda dark for a 8.55 timing in the morning.

I liked the sky then, the colour( it wasn't all dark, it was a mixture actually; just nice for me), the wind, cold wind.

Wil and Cob came over to my house to watch 'Roman Holiday'. It's really good, starring the gorgeous late actress- Audrey Hepburn. Well, i guess these are some of the ways to spend the holidays. It's good enough for me now, considering the fact that i still have to return to school for classes till december 3 times a week tho it's declared a holiday-.- which evidently is so NOT a holiday for me now!

I must say, this year's end of year holiday is a complete let down..

complete

Aaron's coming back tonight, from japan. & i can't wait to hear his story of his communication with the people there with his er, anime-japanese. take for example, his OH-so famous 'BANKAI!'
-.-
Well, when he gets back , the JOYOUS BUNDLE shall get started with our promised movie marathon!

1. HAPPY FEET

2. MATERIAL GIRLS
3. er... still have yet to decide. LOLs XD
Boy are we going to be SO broke for decemeber XD

2006-11-25T21:21:00.000+08:00

blogger beta;
just trying out (:

2006-11-23T22:41:00.000+08:00

put your money where your mouth is

i went to church to strawberry-JAM with wenyao-- just 2 guitars (:
So, we all know that it has been pouring down on this tiny island for the past weeks, and yeah, it looked pretty cloudy after my lunch. THEREFORE, i decided make my way down to church before the rain starts.
Daddy didn't have the car cause mummy's out, so yep.
walk walk walk walk..

As i was leaving the house, i noticed this:

er yeah. i noticed the clouds -.- BUT!

ahead of me:

and behind me:

it's really funny! =)
Well, considering the things im going thru, i could relate to the clouds. MUAHAHAHAH..heh.
I felt as tho, ahead of me, the white clouds and blue sky indicated that i wanted to feel joy and stuff, but, the dark clouds that hovered behind me represented my troubles and anxieties. As the dark clouds moved forward, chasing the baby blue sky away, i felt as tho my problems could not be solved.. (yes yes, stupid-.-)

So i continued my walk to church hoping that the dull clouds wouldn't over take me and obstruct my view of the blue sky.
Yep. But thankfully, as i reached church, my view of the pretty sky was still there. I actually anticipated rain as i left the house, but it didn't. NOT UNTIL.. say, 2 hours after =D

yeah. My trip to New Zealand in December is a great opportunity for me to admire the wonderful sky (: Well, i picture myself on some grassy hill. Trees would sway as tho they were dancing to a slow song as the wind gently blows by. The sun out, shining proudly. AND the clouds, the white, puffy, cotton candy liked & thick clouds paste themselves in the sky. I would be lying on the grass on that grassy hill facing the sky (:

ahhhhh~

BUT! that's what i picture myself doing there whenever i hear about New Zealand. I really don't know whether that's going to happen when i get my butt there; don't know what to expect. All i know is that i'll be seeing lots of sheeps and cows XD

I really can't wait to go! BUT, im so not looking forward to the plane ride o.O sighs. Ultimately, i guess it'll be worth it when i get there (:

(the other pictures i took)

2006-11-21T21:22:00.001+08:00

drive faster

One Tree Hill is one screwed show-- BUT!

i LIKE it. alot.

If im not wrong, i think i got hooked up on in since hm.. say, earlier this year; not too long after it started on the teleV. Yeah, so i kinda missed the first few (or maybe more) episodes of this twisted series.

GOODNESS!

I want to find someone who has all the DVDs on this one XD

anyone?

*crosses fingers*

2006-11-19T18:05:00.000+08:00

masquerade

to solve it- would be a challenge

to end it- would be a disaster... or will it not?

probably it'll be an easier way out.

i don't know, i don't know anymore.

2006-11-05T17:16:00.000+08:00

the 6280 gang!
XD
from left to right: pastor w's, wei song's, terence's, mine (:

2006-11-03T13:35:00.000+08:00

it takes two to tango

Check that!

Beautiful ain't it XD LOLs. Actually, i'm not entirely glad that it's like that. The colour also sort of, er.. scare me a lil. It's as tho some tornado's coming x_X

Anyways, I have been doing 'spring cleaning' while the others are sitting for their major papers. I'm driven to do so; i've got nothing better to do. Besides, if i don't clear up, heh, i can put a sign that indicates my room as a rubbish dump XD

yeah. So i have already cleared my table and my drawers last week. heh. but i have a hunch that it'll be messy again (as usual, as always) very soon, but heck. Let it look nice for now :D

mm. & yesterday, i cleared my wardrobe! Well, the bottom; where the clothes are.

2006-11-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

are you watching closely?

yesterday

Dark clouds, DARK clouds spreaded across the sky of which is visible to me, blocking out the sunlight that shone proudly in the morning. My room was totally dark as though it was already night; the whole house was.

At the sight of this, i anticipated rain.

The rain, to me, seemed to be the only thing that would bring out the sunshine in me. I would be happy.

Probably cause its the holidays and i am still required to return to school for extra classes and CCA. What rubbish- so much for the holidays.

Anyways, IT DIDN'T RAIN YESTERDAY! The colour of the sky was like saying that there's a twister coming or something, i don't know.. But whatever it was, I DIDN'T RAIN..

today

Somehow, i was really tired after lunch. I slept at 2 and arouse at 4 to the sound of the heavy raindrops falling on the roof. I was HOW delighted :D Apparently, according to my dad, who greeted me 'morning' after i got up, told me that it had been raining for quite awhile already.

I'm seriously euphoric :D

heh. But the problem now is,

i can't sleep now! x_X

2006-10-29T22:17:00.000+08:00

Dancing Queen (:

The movie cum karoke marathon!
XD

I know i know;
KAROKE?!

Don't get me wrong,
i don't go karaoke-ing all the time. Once in a blue moon; hm. guess the moon's blue tonight -.-

Anyways, it was a family gathering, with my aunties and uncles, chloe and tristan. We booked the theater at the Tessarina and started this programme and 3pm. I just got home :)

The first movie was CARS. I didn't really went to watch it cause the sun was out and there was no one, NO ONE in the pool XD
So, yep, i went to swim!
And by the time i got back into the lounge, chloe and tristan were already singing their songs. Apparently the karoke session wasn't exactly planned, but out of curiosity, my aunt fixed it up and the 2 lil ones started singing into the mikes.
Okie. Maybe its only chloe that was 'singing'. Tris was sucking the mike and making funny noises, listening to it echo back. His smile was ADORABLE when it echoes back! :D

I was amazed that they even knew ABBA songs!
Their only 5 yrs and 3 yrs old! :O

The kept sanging dancing queen.

Okie. Maybe chloe i can understand, but tristan?!
HAHA. It was really cute :)

note note!
chloe cut her hair SHORT! XD

I would love to do this marathon thing again with them. I must say, its really heaps of fun :)

- At holland V this afternoon, i came across this car with this sign:

2006-10-25T19:39:00.000+08:00

4 a.m

She left;

without knowing God.

2006-10-22T16:14:00.000+08:00

Did you know that no word in the English language rhymes with month, orange, silver, and purple?

Yesterday's lunch with my family was at Peperoni.

It's a really cozy place and has good food too :)

The pizza there isn't like pizza hut, its sort of the real kind of pizza- thin and all. Good stuff :D

The toilet was interesting too! XD It was decorated with great stuff! The following was what my sis and i found in the toilet:

i have no idea what that wine bottle stored, but it looked cool :D

donald duck

the 4 stages of life

My sis and I spent a long while in th toilet looking at all these amusing pictures, and it sort of seemed as tho we had diarrhoea or something XD

2006-10-18T16:21:00.000+08:00

i love paris

I did my IC today. Well, filling in the information and stuff. Since i did it now, this month, i'll be getting my IC next year =/

And it was only today that i found out that i have been using an 'unauthorised chinese' name all my life, well, until now that is. Heh.
Funny.
So, a different chinese character would appear on my IC. LOLS. But oh wells, at least the pronounciation is the same.

-
Last Sunday,
Sunday school was at the beach, well, for my class :D

Uncle kenneth's the best! Hahaha.
He brought my class to Sentosa for sunday school that sunday.
We left church at 7.30am. Yes yes. I know it really does seem darn early to go to Sentosa; i thought so too. But when we got there, i think it was the best timing for sunday school to take place. We didn't go to Siloso beach but to another, hm, i can't remember the name, but its a beach that not many would go, in another words 'wuloo'.
It was abit -.-'' when we reached that beach, but as soon as we sat down to do our quiet time, i grew to like that beach. Probably because there was less distractions, and i could really hear God's creations (:

The beach; the waters, the birds, the wind.

Oh! And soon, a couple of huge balls of fur joined us at that beach. Okie, maybe not balls of fur- Dogs to be precise XD

They were so ADORABLE!

More and more came.
& i reckon that beach's for dogs and their owners.
More towards the dogs' fun i s'pose :)
The dogs were running all over the beach, and swimming in the waters, burying themselves in the sand. SO CUTE!

I think i would wanna go back there again to see the dogs XD

So, after our quiet time, we started off with games :)
ULTIMATE BALL!
& unlce kenneth's team trashed me and aaron's team. HAHA.
And we sort of won from the back XD (according to aaron's crap)

I really had fun then.
My class really bonded, and i think we'll start talking to one another more often in class; we'll see next sunday :D

2006-10-11T22:19:00.000+08:00

100% naturally cute. no added sweeteners or flavourings

2006-10-11T14:37:00.000+08:00

IT'S OVER!

"okie! Pens down."

That was the most pretty phrase my class seem to have heard at 12.15.

They were all delirious with joy.

Well, i don't blame them (:

She, however. She didn't smile. She just sat at her table, in a corner, packing up and watching the smile growing and widening on her classmates' faces. Somehow, she didn't feel euphoric like what she expected to feel, in fact, she felt nothing- well normal, neutral..

Her mind was clouded with a mixture of things; ranging from her subject's revision (still stuck in her head), and fun, to the WHATs, the WHYs, the HOWs.

She knew nothing about the happiness one suppose to feel after this sort of things.

Maybe it was because of what happened yesterday; which linked to a couple of events that happened before.

Maybe, possibly.

" the strongest people in the world are those who are able to take the threats and beatings of the world and yet still stand amidst the anxiety and worries, strong. And the one who prepares to the best of her abilities has nothing to fear but fear itself... for fear can hinder thoughts, stop reasoning and cloud jugement. Fret not, with God, this one battle you can win. This one test you can take... This is the trial that will intimidate you not."

He said.

thank you so much, wenyao (:

IT'S ALL OVER!

The school was really quiet. & our class was sort of the only class left finishing up our exam. We had extra papers from the others. So we sort of rejoiced like 1 1/2 hours later that everyone else.

But at the end of the day, everything's the same- we're thru with sec 3.

And the time, the period of the year, has arrived once again.

And here i am AGAIN, proclaiming that THAT WAS FAST!

hehx. Time really flies..

Well.

I'm beat.

2006-09-13T22:08:00.000+08:00

-amos

1209

Upon reaching home, i found the following along the walk, in my house, to my room (:

you look like a 15yr old monkey

and all the presents (from chloe, tris & jie) were at the bin!

and after that, it was back to the TV for these 2 :D

THANKS EVERYONE! ((:

2006-09-11T21:10:00.000+08:00

911

Putting the terrible tradegy of today aside, GUESS WHO CAME OVER TODAY? the 2 adorable lil' ones (:

I came home from school to find them hiding the living room with the tv on, and all their stuff lying around. Well, the hiding thing wasn't very successful cause lil tristan was finding his sister instead of hiding himself, while chloe was trying to hide from me to surprise me. Clearly tristan didn't understand what he was s'pose to do XD Anyways, he gave it away, pressing his cheeks on the sliding door facing the gate. (chloe was hiding there, under a table) Cute(: And when i entered the house, he ran across the room and said to me : whyareyouhere? Well, it took me quite some time to figure out what he said.

Hm. then i was off 'finding' chloe. I knew where she was; just played along XD

Finally when i found her, she started asking me about school, and requested to share about what i did today in school.

For someone her age, i really must say she's bright!

- gosh! this' so clear XD tv addicts.

check out tris' style of playing the piano :) he gestured for me to sit next to him & play like him!
chloe on the drums!

School has started once again, and the only thing i brought home today was the thought of EOYs coming in 4 weeks from now. Every teacher that came in to teach us today reminded us over and over again. In fact, it was the first sentence they said once they step in; everyone of them!

heh.

I'm getting nervous; gonna start studying NOW :D

Hm. Also wanna wish all the sec 4s & J2s ALL THE BEST!

another day in school,

it's going to be ruined-

tml.

2006-09-10T14:38:00.000+08:00

we're all s'pose to be vegeterians.

In the book of Genesis- 9:3
"Everything that lives and moves will be food for you. Just as i gave you the green plants, i now give you everything."

Just on Friday, nic bought me the firefly strap, i'm so touched XD Now we have a new ex- TL & ATL accessory :D

cool eh?

2006-09-08T22:01:00.000+08:00

on a slow boat to china.

2nd attempt, 2nd batch

the end product (:

Okie. So as you can see from here, i'm not much of a good cook/baker, you get what i mean right? XD Anyways, these are belated teachers' day gifts for my tutors (: Of course i didn't give the burnt ones, but either ways, i bet it tasted terrible :X

- I was babysitting tristan and chloe the other day:

Those 3 drawings you see above, its chloe's.

She's the greatest; that was my surprise she was talking all day. Okie, maybe not all day. When i went to her house to get her and her lil brother, she was like " DON'T COME INTO MY ROOM!"

It was after say 15 mins that i learnt that she was touching up on her surprise for me (:

It s'pose to be a game, according to her. The ones outside the box is the colouring game, and the papers inside the box is her lil story about "the helping girls" or rather "the hleping grills".

Cute eh (:

To end this off,

(done by: my DAD)

2006-09-05T13:34:00.000+08:00

Steve Irwin

Was it carelessness? Was it unexpected?

Was the stingray threatened?

sighs

I loved his shows.

I watched it everyday when i was younger.

I was astonished when i came across that piece of news. I couldn't believe it.

sighs

crikey

2006-08-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

3 more days! (:

Hm. Actually, i wouldn't consider next week to be the HOLIDAYS 'cause i don't think going back to school everyday for extra classes is called holidays. Augh! Someone should really do something about this misconception XD

HOLIDAY IS A HOLIDAY- that means, NO classes, NO going back to school for anything, NO homework; just the rest period.

Heh- But HEY! I doubt this would ever change, nothing can be done i s'pose. Oh wells (:

ANYWAYS, is my blog dead or what :D

Seriously, lately, i don't really have much to blog about; nothing comes to mind when i open the blogger window. HAHA. Guess nothing interesting's happening lately i guess, or probably too caught up with work. That reminds me,

ALL THE BEST FOR ALL THE SEC 4s! (prelims & prep for the real thing :D)

Yeah. As i was saying; nothing much has happened for the past days/weeks (when was the last time i posted?)

Nothing but tests after tests and so on..

No wait.

There was the GET LOST adventure race last LAST Saturday which i have yet to update about and inlcude the pics XD.

OH! And just last Saturday, i attended this charity movie thing at the Zoo. (boy, when was the last time i went back there :P) I went with my family and relatives; pics would be up too.

i hope.

After the movie, i rushed down to Amos' BBQ- celebrate his birthday. Alsa, terence, jethro, chongqing, andrea, florence, janelle and amos the man himself; it has been real long since we've met up huh? ((:

Hoping to see you guys back at Pei Hwa on thurs ((:

And yep! That night's BBQ pics would also be up soon.

i hope.

Till then,

The land where cotton candy's clouds and marshmallow's trees awaits XD

2006-08-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

GO GO GO

5 tests next week:

chem-tml

SS-tues

physics-wed

chinese-thurs

Well, at least i think that's about it :S

Anyways, post on GET LOST race will be up soon, i hope :)

Just want to congrat. ALL teams!

And well done GLORY 4! (: We did our best eh? HAHA. Well, the most important, we had fun yeah? And we raised funds!

FOR GOD'S GLORY +

2006-08-17T23:05:00.000+08:00

smart geniuses

Forming an equation:

1. To chase women, one must have money and time.

Therfore,

women = money x time

2. Time is precious, just like money.

Therefore,

women = money X money

women= money2

3. Money is the root of all evil. Evil is also a problem.

If,

women = money2

sub (square root problem) into money,

Therefore,

women = (square root problem)2

women = problem!

Expansion

( There's s'pose to be a picture here, but my blog somehow can't upload it. Thus, i shall edit this another day (: well, if possible.)

2006-08-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

too fast; make me remember

I haven't updated in a long while.

-hee XD

Have been feeling rather lazy to update, and probably because there's nothing to blog about, nothing special, nothing interesting.

Lately, i've been letting all my troubles pass me by. I don't dwell on them long like last time. Well, it's not exactly as good as you think. I keep having the thought of giving up, letting everything pass, and not even bothering to do anything about them.

I don't know.

Don't bottle them up, she says.

Don't give up easily, she says.

Trying really hard here!

But nothing seems to work.

Ayes.

(digress. digress)

Ain't no other man by Christina is the song that has been on replay in my head! :D

OVER & OVER again. Augh, i think i'm so liking that song now! Duh~

2006-08-10T21:38:00.000+08:00

stone

Maybe you can't be liked by everyone;

Doubt anyone would be.

I learnt that that day.

There's always a first for everything.

And that was indeed my first.

Bad girl vanessa, bad-

wonder how i'm going to go to school..

probably just suffer from a minor stage of quietness for now.

2006-08-06T09:38:00.000+08:00

stop comparing, please

sorry, i'm not what you want me to be.

My fever has subsided, but i can't be sure that it would stay that way.

I am now home, doing my coursework *sobs*

I figured, since i'm still having fever, skip sunday school and do coursework at home. BUT of course, i'm trying my best to be able to go for 11.30 service la'er. No, i HAVE too.

It's a sunday, how could i miss church! :)

Last night was the worse. Just when i thought i was getting better, that my fever was slowly going away, it hit me again after dinner; the highest that i had the whole day: 38.1 All along, yesterday, it has been lingering around 37.0-37.8, so i thought it would be gone sooner or later. However, the fact that it kept going up and down unexpectedly.. i stand corrected=/

I could not talk, i could not stand properly, i was weak, i was uncomfortable, i felt SUPER hot. (warm XD). It was terrible, i hated the feeling.

Nyways, putting that dreadful part aside, after dinner, i went to my aunt's house to visit, check out chloe's new 2 baby hamsters named kim chee (kimmy & cheeky) CUTE RIGHT! Chloe named them herself. & lastly, to check out cute lil tristan! XD

Well, i found out tristan had some problems with pronounciation of some words, or rather, articulation. HEH. And i really mean problem. BUT HEY! He's SO adorable, even when he says those 2 words. It's really cute! (:

I can't wait to see him grow up! No wait, i don't want him to grow up. I want him to stay the way he is. It's just right (:

OH OH OH! I bought a new pair of earrings, a wallet, and jie & I got new bags from aunt stella!

I LOVE HOLLAND V!

hehehhehehehehehehehehe.

The best place to buy nice stuff, and food's great!

I'm loving it~

2006-08-03T20:54:00.000+08:00

2006-08-01T19:55:00.000+08:00

VANESSA

Gender: Feminine

Usage: English

Pronounced: va-NES-a

Invented by author Jonathan Swift. He arrived at it by rearranging the initial syllables of the first name and surname of Esther Vanhomrigh, his close friend. Vanessa was later used as the name of a genus of butterfly.

BUTTERFLY! (:

what's genus? hahah!

2006-08-01T16:41:00.000+08:00

going for a run in 5mins XD

The small cotton wool like clouds against the baby blue sky suggested gentleness to me.

I stared out the window as my mother drove me home from school.

The clouds were not closely packed together, nor was it like super puffy and thick. They were scattered here and there. Average sizes, not too big, not too small. This time, cotton wool was what they looked like- not cotton candy ): BUT, they still looked lovely!

HEY. So much for thinking i could even pass for chinese 'cause 'ya know what? I FAILED!

& badly.

For once i thought i already did my best; my very best, but HOH nooooOoo~

I think trying the hardest of my abilities for chinese would not make a difference. I give up.

A bitter F9 was all i could attain.

& that was not the only 'depressing' thing or rather result that hit me.

Physics; yes, BE-A-utiful physics.

IT WAS JUST 1 MARK! T_T

Lols. Well, i didn't exactly expected myself to pass initially, but i still felt disappointed and angry with myself when i recieved the paper and the horrid marks. And mr. prakash had to arrange them in order. I WAS THE LAST ONE TO FAIL. (o.kie. that was an odd way of saying it XD)

Anyways, after my teacher called my name to give me my paper,

" okie! from now, everyone pass!"

It was irritating and unpleasant to my ear.

Blame myself for not being able to do physics at all T_T

Nvm! I really feel like giving up on physics and chinese. But on second thought, hm.

Hey- i'm only sec 3. There's still time for improvement aye? :D

I'm going to JIA YOU harder-er for these 2.

Cheer up chew!

For the first time, yes shocking i know, i'm thinking positive :D

yep. So must try to improve on our chinese XD

2006-07-31T16:39:00.000+08:00

Lovely weather today, ain't it (:

2006-07-30T23:51:00.000+08:00

subway

50 CENTS SAYS THERE WAS SOMETHING IN YOUR SANDWICH JIE!

either that or your screws weren't tight today (:

2006-07-29T19:30:00.000+08:00

left my fear by the side of the road

The piano piece 'Moonlight sonata' is really nice.

This time, i'm going to try to complete all three parts, starting with part 1. (duh!)

Well, the last time i tried it, i wasn't even close to finishing the first part. Only made it thru the first and half of the second page. Quite pathetic huh? HOH, it's just me. I give up easily, and besides, i don't DO theory. I can just sit there, spending who-knows-how-long figuring and remembering the notes. Mainly, figuring out.

Bearing in mind- that's why i quit piano lessons cause grade 5 needed theory..

And i so regret quitting.

Anyways, i suddenly had that piece ringing in my head today. And i thot it was the best method of expressing what i was feeling. Well, i didn't exactly know what i was feeling, but all i know is that im feeling gloomy and in no mood to smile. Odd, yes i know. I don't even know why!

Yep. So, after tuition, i came back home, rummaged thru my loose and messed up piano scores and found it.

Dusty but still the same.

I opened the door only to feel the breeze in my face. It was very inviting.

And the sky was dark, greyish. Again.

I sat there and started off with the first few bars, and managed to pick up what i remembered from last time. HAHA. So much for theory :D

I felt better after playing that same first page and second half over and over again. It didn't flow from the second page-half back to the first but, HECK, who cares! I felt good.

LOLS!

Okie. Now its back to the books, the worksheets, the coursework, the compos.

AUGH.

That's my weekend homework.

(WHY IS IT CALLED WEEKENDS? -.-)

Oh wells.

jie, please cheer up;

whatever it is.

SMILE kies?!

2006-07-27T16:12:00.000+08:00

happy landing on a chocolate bar

Call me crazy but i think chinese paper was exceptionally understandable to me today. All the passages- i could understand, BUT that won't mean that i'll pass. I MAY, or may NOT. No idea. But i really felt i tried my best today; hope it ain't wasted (:

Today's weather's insanely scorching hot!

On my way back from school, i craved for an ice cream, i even planned what flavour and blah. And i had it XD

Haven't enjoyed one in a long time, hehs.

Strangely, now, i'm witnessing the movement of the clouds. Apparently, the dark greyish clouds are slowly covering the sky, blocking out the bright sun. What a drastic change ain't it? LOLs.

Well, weather update!

-today's weather:

Currently, the temperature has dropped from er, sth to sth. (righttt.)

And it is now partly cloudy, heavy showers may occur in the central part of Singapore. (i'm SO hoping)

I want to hear the soft hammerings of the raindrops on the rooftops, slowly changing and getting heavier and louder.

I want to hear thunder, BUT not see lightnening XD

I want watch the raindrops falling from the sky.

I want.

Please rain! :D

im going to jia you; harder from now!

2006-07-26T20:03:00.000+08:00

OR NOT-

so much for picking up

i DETEST physics!

Their fruitless effort;

my stupidity.

AUGH~

I'm so not touching physics for the next few days.

oh yeah!

thanks COB

2006-07-25T22:49:00.000+08:00

PICKING UP

thanks WENYAO!

thanks BIG D

thanks ZJ

thanks MATT

thanks WIL

thanks SEPH

thanks EVAN

THANKS a million (:

Apologise for my slowness :P

Will try my best tml!

2006-07-21T22:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPINESS IS WINNING OVER.

School was different today. Well, maybe only for me.

It isn't much of a difference, but it was odd to me that i felt fine and happy to be alone today. I didn't want anyone to rob me of this unusal euphoria. And because of that, i guess i was abit cold to some people. SOME. And to others, probably zombie-like.

Sorry.

Anyways, i walked back to class alone when i was done with recess.

I haven't done that, or was that, for like 1 year or so. I was like that when i was sec 1, but slowly 'recovered' after june that year. Yep. It has been awhile since i felt that loneliness.

I have also been worried about being lonely- i HATE that feeling, and it gets me worried. But this time round, i wanted to. When i just left the canteen, it really felt odd. No one was around me, the area that i was walking along was empty. But after awhile, it felt good to me. (odd ain't it?)

Well. I took my time and walked (or strolled) back to class with many things going thru my mind.

Another thing, they weren't sad things. There wasn't much worries.

The bell rang. It indicated the start of the last period of the day.

The last bell for the day finally rung.

& the class was still filled with bags and people sitting around waiting for each other.

One by one, group by group, they left.

Leaving me, myself and i in the classroom that suddenly seemed so huge to me.

Huge and empty.

When it was the time that i arranged with my dad to fetch me from school, i packed my stuff and switched off the lights and the fans.

I walked out of my classroom, alone, but happy. OR not.

I closed the door behind me, and suddenly pictured myself closing the green door, and andrea, florence, janelle & LOVE 6 there with me.

Pei Hwa.

Ah yes. The old days.

Then i was back to the orange door.

I took my last glance at my reflection thru the long rectangle piece of glass in the door and left.

Expressionless but yet, happy in a way-

Ayes, i love after-schools. Its the best time of the day during the weekdays.

Friday especially, the shortest (:

& what's more, YF- my home, my comfort zone,

and my joy.

2006-07-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

my answered prayer?

My F&N teacher did not come to class today, so we had to report to the hall and do our own self revision.

We were made to sit at the tables that were arranged by out fellow students who were talking during the self revision time. I sat right at the side entrance of the hall. It was completely open, and the parade square was just there.

I did my work quietly and soon learnt that the sky was becoming darker and darker.

I started admiring the beautiful grey sky.

The gloomy sky brightened up my day, well, maybe only at that moment.

Yes, call me odd. But i love rain, especially when im in school.

The winds grew stronger and stronger.

The hall grew darker together with the clouds.

The trees in the field looked as tho it was just pasted up there in the sky. It didn't look real. The surroundings didn't.

The colours didn't match; nothing did.

But i felt good(:

I took frequent glances at the sky and enjoyed the wind.

I didn't want to return to class when the bell rang. But i did anyways.

The sound of thunder was really comforting to me, and the patterings of the rain was indeed music to my ears.

Loved it.

So much for my monday blues.

It was just too good today.

8.30- 1.30

I think i'm starting to like mondays cause of the timing :D

& when it was time to go home.

IT SHINED!

2006-07-16T21:48:00.000+08:00

the second one (:

Just want to wish all the sec 4s ALLT THE BEST for your O' chinese listening compre tml! ((:

You'll be in my prayers.

Make my life a prayer to you

Make my life a prayer to You

I want to do what You want me to

No empty words, no white lies

No token prayers, no compromise

I want to shine the light You gave

Through Your Son You sent to save us

From ourselves and our despair

It comforts me to konw

You're really there

Well, I want to thank You now for being patient with me

Oh, it's so hard to see when my eyes are on me

I guess I'll have to trust and just believe what You say

Oh, You're coming again, coming to take me away

I want to die and let You give Your life to me that I might live

And share the hope You gave to me

The love that set me free

I want to tell the world out there

You're not something or fairy tale

That I've made up inside my head

You're God the Son, You've risen from the dead

Well, I want to thank You now for being patient with me Oh, it's so hard to see when my eyes are on me I guess I'll have to trust and just believe what You say Oh, You're coming again, coming to take me away

2006-07-13T15:32:00.000+08:00

the start or something new

I found comfort in the sour bomb sweets that was given to me today.

Just 5 of them, and i felt refreshed and better.

The sour taste must have replaced the bitterness in here.

Why should i care, i'm not s'pose to. I didn't for awhile, and why again?

I'm feeling easily agitated,

i'm feeling easily annoyed about everyone around me..

(i doubt its the time of the month YET)

But hey! I think i've got a problem. So kill be for being so.

2006-07-08T09:25:00.000+08:00

this was how we spent youth day hol (:

& most of us came back burnt! ;P

2006-07-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

Germany-4, Argentina-2

WOOHOO. GO GERMANY!

Great match! Well, aside from me nodding off towards the end. (hey! It was really late, and no one was scoring. So much extra time given!)

A couple of us went to blim's house to watch the match.

The thing that kept be awake was benita's screeches and her sudden jump and movement on the sofa when the ball was nearing the goal of Argentina's :D

And tonight, England vs Portugal. & BRAZAIL vs France.

Dang. My dad just informed me that he couldn't tap into the malaysian channels for the matches. SO SAD! Now havta go down to blim's to watch, and i'm lazy.

Shucks, i'd probably stay home and find out the score tml :(

La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la-

The aircon in my dad's car's spoilt. So, these few days we've been having the windows winded down for natural aircon. It feels great actually, apart from all the loud noises and blahs and stuff, loved the wind in my face.

I kinda stoned and drifted away with the wind on the way to dinner. I had COOLIE!!! MY DAD MANAGED TO TAP INTO THE MALAYSIAN CHANNEL! YEAH MAN! YAY YAY YAY YAY!

OOps, anyways, as i was saying ;D

Erm, yeah, i had some slow jazzy sone playing on my mp3. Blended in well:D

Ah yes. Had also an additional sound to all the songs that played in my ear- the wind. I could hear it, deep and loud.

Now i know how it feels like to drive some convertable. LOL! BUT, of course there are some disadvantages like dust and small dirt particles flying into your face when some bus or fast bikie and other vehicles zoom pass yours. Or when some old truck or bus pass by you and black fumes 'floats' out of the exhuast pipe. I would list more, but.. :D

Island creamery so rocks!

HAHAH. About 10 of us went down there to enjoy their wonderful ice-creams; banana & apple pie. Unique and tasty. Well, most of it. LOL. Jia hui and Big D had tiger soba or whatever you call it. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! WHAT THE CRAP! THAT MALAYSIAN CHANNEL DOESNT SHOW THE MATCH! WHAT THE CRAP!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Augh! Big D & sam just came over to find that the channel that i tapped into didn't show the match at all and now their at blim's wathching. I'd go, if i was allowed. The heck. Nvm.

AS I WAS SAYING, we were all digging into 2 tubs of ice-cream when wil spotted this cool car (V8?), don't know. I cant really remember the names, remember the appearance. MUAHAH. Anyways, all of us paused and our eyes followed the car as it went off. It was really funny, all our heads turned and followed the car until it couldn't be seen and then we resumed. HAHAHAHA!

Ah wells! So much for the euphoria i felt just now, knowing that i could watch the matches home.

AUGH.

Ugh- guess i should hit the books now.

Might as well look forward to Youth sunday tml and sentosa on monday! XD

YEAH, feels good now. But still..

2006-06-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

Zipadeedoodah

Zip-a-dee-doo-dah, zip-a-dee-ay

My, oh my what a wonderful day!

Plenty of sunshine heading my way

Zip-a-dee-doo-dah, zip-a-dee-ay

Mister Bluebird on my shoulder

It's the truth, it's actch'll

Ev'rything is satisfactch'll

Zip-a-dee-doo-dah, zip-a-dee-ay

Wonderful feeling, wonderful day!

These few days, i tire easily.

I don't seem to have enough and much energy to last me thru the day. Or even after.

I'm feeling rather sleepy and tired now. And i have a test tml!

Lovely-

2006-06-26T18:45:00.000+08:00

shoot all the bluejays you want, if you can hit 'em,

but remember it's a sin to kill a mockingbird.

By the time i tucked myself nicely in bed, it was already 12:30.

And by the time i drifted to slumberland, i reckon it was about 1:45 'cause the last time i glanced at the clock, it was 1:25. And i forced myself to darkness, hoping it'll allow me to enter lalala land soon.

Well, the weirdest thing; i managed to wake up this morning & i was pretty much wide awake and didn't feel tired or going back to sleep when i got out of bed. In fact, i was at a lost. I didn't know, for a split second, why i was up so early. Then the question was, ' damn. what time do i usual leave the house? What time am i s'pose to get to school? Am i s'pose to be in school today? Am i late?'

I miss the holidays!

While waiting for my F&N teacher to come into class, i counted down to the next holiday. I marked out all the holidays- public/school/the-day-after-kind-of-holiday, everything. Call me stupid. But i always do that after some long holiday. Well, 4 more days to this weekend, and it's youth day holiday on Monday! :D

One thing's for sure.

I survived the first day. I'm so relieved. HAHA.

I was surprisingly awake in lessons till 2pm.

I just knocked out. It was as tho my engery bar that i was running on just emptied itself. I kinda dozed up in E-maths. Terrible.

But oh wells!

TEDDY GEIGER: For you i will (confidence)

Wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all

Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet

As what I can't have

Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair

round your finger

Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you

What I feel about you.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

and cannon ball into the water

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

For you I will

Forgive me if I stutter

From all of the clutter in my head

Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes

Like a water bed

Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways

a thousand times, no more camouflage

I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have and cannon ball into the water I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

For you I will

You always want what you can't have

But I've got to try

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

For you I will

If I could dim the lights in the mall

And create a mood I would

Shout out your name so it echoes in every room, yeah

That's what I'd do,

That's what I'd do

To get through to you

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

And cannon ball into the water

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

For you I will

You always want what you can't have

But I've got to try

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

For you I will

ugh. i'm starting to get impartient with my blog.

It always screw up on me!

*cools*

2006-06-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

Chaos Butterfly™ - ιδιωτης - Folie à deux - Take 5 - Psychoceramic - 5 solas - /wrists - Dont Drink & Derive - Procrastinatin' says: *takes out my books from my bag, rubs hands together* let the last minute insanity begin!

It's 11:40 now.

20 more minutes to go till its officially monday- doom.

Let's count down together shall we?

It's 11:41 now.

It's 11:42 now.

I'm just going to clock down every minute that passes by.

YEAH IM SURE!

Ayes, it's saddening enough to know that the hols are over (it's 11:43 now), and now i'm counting down? It's madness.

I keep telling myself that the things that happen there doesn't and will not mean anything to me, but i'm still afraid to face it. Especially when you can predict what's going to happen, considering the fact that it has been happening for the past 2 years. Well, i'm pretty much used to it now. And now, it's even better. I've got ppl back here who cares. I know it. I feel much secured :D

Okie. It's now 11:47.

And im deciding whether i should go to bed & wake up to my doom tml.

11:48

I so know that i'm going to die in shcool tml.

I'll just doze off as soon as lessons starts.

Well, hope i'll survive.

And hey! I just recieved a msg that i have to report for duty at 7 am tml morning.

'Kill' me.

I bet i can't wake up..

11:49

Should i turn in now?

11:50

I'm not lieterally waiting for time to fly! It just does!

When i take the next glance at the time, it just goes! AHHH! It flies too fast.

SLOW DOWN!

(Ugh. As if this would work-.-)

11:51

11:52

Okie! Maybe i should just end it off here.

Well, i shall wish everyone the best of luck for tml! (:

Let the studying begin!

i shall imagine that it is 12am now, thus officially is monday!

ugh. Good luck to me!

2006-06-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

i don't care, i won you in checkers! :D

Ugh. The last time i tried updating the events that has happened in this month of June, my blog just screwed me! It turned out all wrong; the arrangement of the pictures & blah blah. So fed up! It always happens, always to me. But oh wells. Im here to try once again. I'm calm XD

last FRIDAY speak no evil, smell no evil, hear no evil. excuse nic for his misconception :P 1,2,3 some failure attempt of trying to act cute; once again, please excuse nic of his misconception of the number 3!
SATURDAY

the friendly match between the pres.churches- whites: captain's ball blues: soccer
SUNDAY
CHURCH CAMP "if i remian in you, and your words remain in me, ask whatever you wish and it will be

given you" -john 15:7

we're the great minds!

it wasn't planned;

aaron & wenyao wore the same shirt, and pris & i wore the same too!

I'm so missing camp now.

The worships,

the friends,

the company,

the living-so-near-to-eachother,

the everyday-seeing-one another,

the BOWLING,

the games,

the late nights,

the running around the hotel late at night..

Well, of course it shouldn be only about the fun and games, but also about HIM+

Hahaha.

Yep. I'm hoping that time would fly fast, that all would fast forward to the november & december holidays. I don't want to go back to shcool, its gonna be dull, its gonna be tough, its gonna be crazy, its gonna be problems once again.

It's my doom!

But oh wells, i shall continue to look forward to fridays, saturdays, and sundays! (:

I will TRY to be happy,

i will TRY to not bite my fingers,

i will TRY to not bother about them,

i will TRY to practice to be humble, loving, patient & gentle.

(boy am i ambitious!)

Okie dokie!

BOWLING TOMORROW!

We aim to be HIGH like mad, and make the last day of this holiday good! ;D

2006-06-19T21:48:00.000+08:00

TAKE 5

I'm now rather lazy to blog again.

I'll be uploading the pictures soon- hopefully.

I have yet to recieve all the pictures! (:

It's already the last week, and i'm left with physics and one more book report.

Crap. So much for finishing everything on the first week.

Well, i'm gonna enjoy myself this week no matter what!

I already started off today.

MOVIE with the pig!

And tommorw, i think i'll be having some XBOX marathon! ;D

Dang it! My dad agreed to the world cup channels but my mom didn't. Guess i shall head to MACs to watch with beni and group!

2006-06-13T18:57:00.000+08:00

Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger

-homer/bart simpson/wil

Okay. Call me crazy but i'm 'sad'. I have officially finished my cotton candy!

HO! That must have taken a long while for me to finish it considering the fact that i bought it last monday at the funfair; you'd say. But hey! I got one tub of strawberry cotton & a small packet of blueberry cotton. If i did finish them all on that day itself, i would just die of sugar high-ness and be more vulnerable to diabetes. HAHAHAH!

Besides, my dad was against me finishing it all in one day cause it's pure sugar.

So.. yeah.

But anyway, the point is, IT'S ALL GONE! Now i have to wait till some other funfair (which i doubt i'd be going again) or maybe some miraculous day when it rains cotton candy instead of rain water. (if it happens, i would like the strawberry flavoured one :P)

Well, guess i have to rely on my LaLaLand now that i'm out of cotton candy.

Chewing my pillow while dreaming that i'm stuffing myself with 'grass' in slumberland sounds perfect considering the situation i'm in.

Oh blame me for my deprived childhood! ;D

I just received an e-mail from Leon with the pictures from his camera at pris' party.

Wonder whether i should upload them now?

Nah.

I think i shall edit them, and stick them, and do all those funny stuff before uploading. Want to try someting new. HEE! I'll probably make a collage with the other events that are nearing like the church camp; DUH, it's tomorrow.

It just hit me,

how

time

flies

Now, there's only one pathetic week left of the June holiday. And i didn't really make much out of this holiday. In other words: MOVIES, SENTOSA, SHOPPING, BADMINTON, etc etc. (ever wondered how to spell the full word of etc? HAHAHA)

Anyways, i think i just wasted this holiday away on the holiday assignments! Crap & BULL-.

I've been procrastinating since the start of the holiday.

"I aim to finish ALL my assignments on the first week of the holiday so i can enjoy the remaining weeks & revise" YEAH RIGHT!

Guess what genius, you still have physics and english left!

Actually, i don't mind english. It's just the 2 book reviews left. Wait, make that 1. I completed one just yesterday.

Good book; the five people you meet in heaven.

Thanks jie!

So, as i was saying.. I don't mind english. I suddenly develop a liking in books, thanks to my recommend-er, anon.

Yeah, and physics. HAH! I can't help it. I just don't enjoy the subject, thus, i dread doing it! MUAHAHAHA! But, i'll finish it that's for sure.. i hope. I'm planning to bring it to camp tml. There's free&easy, so i s'pose i could squeeze physics in while the others have mass tuition with wen yao! Hahaha.

Now, THAT, is good peer pressure(:

~~i feel like a BIG fool~~

~~for letting the ridic stress get to me.~~

thanks benita!

2006-06-12T21:17:00.000+08:00

HER SWEET SIXTEEN

11th June 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PRISCILLA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

Lotsa <3,

ME-

2006-06-06T20:48:00.000+08:00

& wil was trying to make me fall asleep,

BUT AT THE WRONG TIME!

"i am soft and comfortable. i bring dreams of lands where cotton candy is grass and marshmellows are clouds."

"*your pillow stands up and prances around the edge of your bed* come vanessa, enter slumberland.."

"*bed leaps forward and engulfs you in its warmth and comfort.. the soft pillow presses against your head and your eyes start to droop, your mind stops thinking and you enter dreamland, where cotton candy lie everywhere, skittles make up rainbows, marshmellows - clouds, and the roads are paved with milk chocolate.*"

HAHAHA!

It was around 12 midnight last night, and just when i got the sudden energy & momentum to do my homework, wil had to come along and 'encourage' me with those.

When i finally decided to turn it, i couldn't sleep or drift off to lalaland. Well, so much for the cotton candy and marshmellows..

2006-06-06T19:52:00.000+08:00

GREAT ARTIST AT WORK!

2006-06-05T14:44:00.000+08:00

OH SWEET SUGAR!

This kiddy carnival killed me, i DIED! My mom already paid for the tic so what could i do but to take my lil' cousin, chloe, to the carnival.

Okie, maybe it's fun and enjoyable for the little kids, BUT NOT ME! hahah, i was only interested in the music part. However, i must say, it was sort of cute to see the small children playing, fooling around, screaming & dancing. ayes, i'm old! -.-

Well, there were a lot enthu parents there too! And they were really REALLY enthu :D

The grand finale made my day.

The percussionist were okay, but there's this auzzie guy, he's really PRO and good. I adored his smile ((X They performed different kinds of music: jazz/ latin/ javanese, etc.

It was beautiful, and they got the audience to clap along.

OH OH! candy floss also made my day too! :P

It has been years, long long years. I bought 2 tubs, YEAH!

LOOK AT HOW BIG ACS(B)' HALL IS!

a lil fun & games of the kids

chloe facing the rest in confusion

chloe

chloe volunteered

the 'plank of wood' there; it's a drum! (base & snare sound)

the grand finale: percussions!

pro drummer :X

2006-05-30T13:42:00.000+08:00

& I GUESS IM BACK TO THE START

& maybe primary school isn't the most joyous times i had

& maybe it's all a lie

& maybe there's a big green monster on my back

& maybe it was meant to turn out this way, that she wasn't the best pal that i had.

& maybe it was my fault to let it slip away

& maybe its the interest that pulls this bond apart

& maybe..

I read their blogs, and i think im getting a tat bit jealous.

They're (both) into arts and dance. I'm no where there.

But it doesn't matter now, does it?

I don't want to be possesive, i don't want another arguement.

I shall just let things be the way it is planned to be, tho it's really tough. But, i guess, i have to let things go sometimes. And this time, i'm not going to be difficult.

If it's meant to be, then, let it be (:

I don't want to be some possesive spoilt brat.

I TELL YOU, Today's E-maths remedial's a bunch of wasted time!

I thought we would be learning something new, or have some massive revision of all the topics that we have learnt so far. But unfortunantly..

And and! It was only an hour of class -.-

We did 6 SIMPLE questions on trigo and learnt 2 tricks on the calculator...

Whee! It was such a productive morning don't you think!?

Well, it's only one lesson for this E-maths subject. The rest of the tedious subs are to come, good luck to me. Especially friday's and thursday's remedial. Lock-in-night is going to suck all my energy out!

But i'm so not going to blame it, I WANT TO GO FOR LOCK-IN-NIGHT,

not school..

Tralalalala~

I want to watch X-3 and over the hedge &

PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN; the dead man's chest! (which, mind you, is coming out in JULY)

Argh. Why can't it come out in June! July might not be a really good time to catch a movie, for me. =(

well, we'll see i guess.

Okie, maybe not X-3; not a huge fan here! HAHA :D

2006-05-29T19:26:00.000+08:00

YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE

i woke up to the sound of what seemed to be the beep that indicated the turn off of the air-con. okie, i wasn't exactly 'eyes open' kind of awake. i was still floating around in la la land, and at the same time, back to reality. i continued to 'pig' in bed as the cold air which filled my room excape thru the ajar door that my mom had left open. i grew warm and uncomfortable; i kicked off my small blanket on me and frowned in my ending journey of la la land.

finally, my eyes decided that it was enough, i had already been sleeping for 3 ful hours, and no, this isn't in the morning nor is it the normal sleeping time that we all take.

It was kinda like an afternoon nap, but it wasn't planned.

who wouldn't get tired and bored of doing holiday homework:D

as my eyes opened slowly, there was this bright light shinning thru my window. and i felt as tho i was blinded for that few seconds.

The sun was directly at the other end of my window. it was very bright and beautiful. at the position which i was lying on the bed, it was as tho the sun was right in my face.

it was an odd and rare sight, but then again, lovely.

it was like a bright shinning sunflower up in the sky,

like a huge glowing star; the bright light produce, the shape, the beauty.

the sunlight lighted only my head area, leaving the rest of my body and the bed in the shadow of the wall below the windows and the curtains.

ah!

i've got like a hundred more SUBJECTS of homework to go X_X

okay! im gonna finish at least 2 subjects tonight before my nighty night time, i hope...

and great, my remedials start tml. it's really going to be a very tight schedule to keep from tml onwards. remedials followed by remedials with LOCK-IN-NIGHT in between. im so dead.

i think i'll be asleep in class on the thurs and fri's.

sobs~

shoutouts!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SAM, CRYSTAL & GAVIN, (whoa, that's a mouthful)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU YOU!

a BIG congrats to those who took their chinese O paper today! :D

1 down, 7 more to go (?)

hahah, well , guess it kinda depends if they manage to pass this paper huh? but, anyways, go enjoy your june hols, and at the same time study hard for the rest of the other papers! whee.

my turn is next year man, *gulp*

2006-05-27T00:02:00.000+08:00

AND YES. CALL ME STUPID(:

i SURVIVED thru the first leading of a bible study.

okie, i have to admit, it wasn't that bad as i had imagined. LOLs. scared myself :D

yes yes, it's all in the mind. heex! i've learned that the first try and the first time wouldn't be smooth sailing as you want it to be. you'll always have to start from some bad area to improve! and, HEE! i don't think i would mind to lead again IF i suddenly have the urge to. heex.

nah, i think i'll try to take turns with sam to lead. alternate. don't want to push everything to him,

IM A GOOD ATL OKIE!

cheers man!

its the end of Term 1 & 2, and its the start of the june holiday!

*grins widely*

happiness ((X

today's event in school; be-yourself-day.

i think it's the first even be-yourself-day that i attended in my secondary life.

always felt that it was a complete waste of time. and, now that i attended for the first time, YEAH, it was kinda a waste of time.

could have sleeped in, watched tv or sth. hahah!

okie, maybe i don't have interesting things to do at home, but coming to school wearing your own clothes, watching others surveying your outfit from TOP TO TOE!

like WHAT-THE-heck.

those are some of the reasons why i dread going fot these kind of events that the school organises.

hahaha!

i was sabotaged to go because i was assigned to be the accountance person; collect the money from each stalls that my class had set up.

oh! forgot to mention.

today was sort of like a carnival- fund raising carnival.

my class did car washing for the Teachers, $7.

hennah painting, $1.

sold home-made cookies (made by rowena), 10 pieces for $1.

sold home-made cakes (rowena again), 3 triangles for $1.

the cakes where one of the favourites by the teachers. BUT, we had heaps of leftovers.

HUGE AMOUNT of cakes left. haha!

poor rowena.

but seriously, it was REALLY delectable.

yeah, the teachers were probably broke to support everyone of our fund raising booths; considering the fact that EVERY class was conducting their own fund raising activites, and almost all of us approached the teachers for support. LOLS! pitiful :D

i wanna change.

i don't want to be pessimistic anymore.

i don't want to be some over sensitive kind of person

learn to be independent.

okie, maybe not THAT independent.

i want to still relay on friends! :D

thanks wil.

thanks veron.

thanks chew.

CHANGES(:

it shall take place now.

i've got 1 month recovery.

i'm free from THERE for 1 month! :D

no wait, its not really a whole month. shucks. i still have to return for remedials.

augh. shitty~

2006-05-23T14:47:00.000+08:00

HATE ME

i need you Jesus, to come to my rescue

where else can i go?

there's no other name by which i am saved

capture me with grace

i will follow you

this world has nothing for me,

this world has nothing for me.

cross country cum meet-the-parents session; today's a really short day. came home at about 11.30. and tomorrow's a day off! haha. i shall go for a swim tml, maybe get a tan or sth. =P if it wasn't for the monsoon season that stumbled upon us while we were at OBS, i wouldn't be going swimming for a tan or sth. would be black and happy already, but ah wells. i'll just go tml anyway, i've got nothing to do at home.

teng and her group of friends decided to have their lunch at the bukit timah market. it's not everyday that those people would come to BT, so i took the "lead". maybe i was abit proud or in some way. i mean, i'm always hanging around at BP because my school is there, unsure about the people around me, the environment that surrounds me. this time, its the other way around, that they may be a mile in my shoes.

okie, maybe i'm exaggerating. HEY, they just came here to eat -.-

augh. but either ways. i think i kinda acted rather arrogantly. i don't know. just felt that way.

sorry.

they didn't reply me when i asked them stuff or talked to them for that matter, i backed off. fine.

maybe i'm over sensitive.

maybe they didn't hear me.

maybe i'm just thinking too much.

maybe i can't take the pressure now.

maybe i'm just some annoyed kid.

maybe..

LOLS. i think i should start blogging about happy things.

i'm tired of looking back, and reading the depressing stuff that i'm facing.

besides, EUPHORIA ain't going to be the name of my blog if i keep publishing this kind of entires eh? hahah.

i want to change :D

its only a matter of time.. i hope

2006-05-22T19:41:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO SING

who am i?

that the Lord of all the earth

would care to know my name

would care to feel my hurt

who am i?

that the bright and morning star

would choose to light the way

for my ever wandering heart.

no because of who i am,

but because of what you've done.

not because of what i've done,

but because of who you are.

i am a flower quickly fading,

here today and gone tomorrow,

a wave tossed in the ocean,

a vapour in the wind.

still you hear me when i'm calling,

Lord, you catch me when i'm falling,

and you've told me who i am.

i am yours.

who am i?

that the eyes that see my sin

would look on me with love

and watch me rise again.

who am i?

that the voice that calmed the sea,

would call out through the rain,

and calm the storm in me.

no because of who i am, but because of what you've done. not because of what i've done, but because of who you are.
i am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow, a wave tossed in the ocean, a vapour in the wind. still you hear me when i'm calling, Lord, you catch me when i'm falling, and you've told me who i am. i am yours. i am yours.

i'm yours.

whom shall i fear?

'cause i am yours.

i am yours.

the same skit was being showed again as i was on my way home.

the same skit;

the rain.

the rear of the buses.

BP.

this time, the people around me didn't disappear, but the noises that surrounded me just went into the state of muteness. once again, i just stared at the rain, watching the rain water that collected on the road flow down the gentle slope in front of me.

it wasn't exactly the same as the other time.

the feeling, the pain..

its was relatively light, compared to then.

a good sign i s'pose?

probably because i found someone who sort of understands me, who knows how it feels.

it's indeed a true relief.

frankly speaking, i didn't expect it from someone like her :D

i'm not sadist or anything, just really glad that i'm not alone here. hee!

i'm starting to deny whatever i believe in.

my intrests.

my studies.

who i am.

i'm starting to discourage myself in my music background.

i'm stuck at a pathetic level, and i don't seem to be progressing at all.

i seeked for help, but the help wasn't exactly what i was looking for, it didn't answer to my queries.

*groans*

thanks veron.

i really had a good chat with you just now,

i really felt better :D

do cheer up yeah? hahaha.

2006-05-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

VINDICATED

i got back my marks for my common test, or in other words, CA1 or mid years.

well, okie.

so my marks aren't very satisfying.

i've tried so hard. i've tried my best!

but i guess my best is not good enough.

right.

it must be time to start tasting faliure once again.

and i thought i left that all behind, there in those playful and carefree years of mine.

my joyous times,

my memories,

my past,

my happiest moments.

probably its an indication to announce that i am slacking too much and should start bucking up and STUDY. and i had to learn it the hard way..

well, i think i got the message loud and clear!

inescapably clear.

i was down in the dumps today and couldn't hold back my tears that were building up inside.

they just flowed down.

i was incapable of controlling my feelings that were overwhelming me at that moment. i was hopeless. BUT, with the encouragements and comforts from the following:

[X] yao guang

[X] hui ying

[X] hui miang

[X] hui teng

[X] SULAIMAN

[x] tyan soon

[X] sebas

[X] chew

a big thanks to you guys. really, and truely.

frankly speaking, i never thot i'd say thanks to SOME of them listed there :D

you know, sometimes it seems as tho guys are the best friends to have. don't get me wrong to be some flirt fellow.

but seriously, so far, i've noticed that.

you know how girls bitch about each other, detest one another, click together, leave others out yada yada yadas.. those kind of stuff.

the opposite gender COULD BE one of the remedys to cure lonelieness in friendships. i don't know. that's what i felt.

caught the movie " a cinderella's story", the guy who is hillary's best bud; yup. THAT'S my ideal kind of friend. and THAT apperently can only be found in US, something that cannot be found in Singapore, i feel.

to have a friend like that, would be really fab. how i wish* =P

oh wells, so much for wishes and dreams.

2006-05-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

WHEN A STRANGER CALLS

kurt outing today :D

we all met at taka and made our way down to cine to watch the movie.

and i got pretty flowers from danica and the others! pretty pretty pretty pretty*

yeah. actually, the show wasn't as good as i thought it would be.

the ending was too abrupt;

the poor girl ended up being traumatized,

the killer didn't have any link to the main character. he just popped up from no where.

there was TOO much suspense. overdone -.-

but ah what the heck.

it was still relatively good. hee!

im so looking forward to the next outing and PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN II! =D

2006-05-11T15:30:00.000+08:00

KURT- OBS' 06 OBS

rocks big time :)

FIRST DAY

the kayak practice;

the capsizing and the T-rescues

the fibre glass

the jetty jump

SECOND DAY

the 5.55

the shocking morning PT

the HIGH elements!!

the trust-your-mates kind of activites;

just fall back!

the setting off for the land expedition to campsite 2

the MOSQUITOES!

the heavy haversacks

the amazing guy chefs

the impressive pitching of our bashas (DANICA, SUE)

the group's independence

the start of wanting the punctuality award (FIONA)

the compact night for the girls VS the spacious night for the guys!

ah. the horrible night

THRID DAY

the breakfast made by danica;

her tuna sandwiches with overflowing oil 0.O

the MOSQUITOES again!

the setting off for

the terrible hike to the quarry

the heavy load on our backs again

the problems and confusion in the forest

the HUGE spider webs and spiders!

the feeling of giving up VS the encouragement from one another :D

THE QUARRY!!

the cooling sensation

the raft building

the bonding of the team in the waters

the hike back to campsite 1;

the long long long long hike back..

FOURTH DAY

the 5.55 again

the relaxing morning PT

the sea expedition around pulau ubin!!

the confusion and frustration of all for watches combined at sea

the last minute changes made because of mother nature

the T-rescue only yao guang and i had to do the jellyfishes!

the yucky salt waters

the trend of eating ovaltine and milo powder

the meeting of new friends outside your own watch

the light rain

the waves

the campsite with no toilets, no bunks, no nothing, but trees and nature. AND a place which is totally infested with MOSQUITOES AND WILD BORES!

the controlling of our pee >.< (danica and i didn't want to do anything on that island. GROSS) the powder bath the guy chef's in action again, and the pitching of bashas

the fibre glass cuts again

the goodbyes to our instructor boon!

the cold and sticky night

and not to mention, the last night :(

FIFTH DAY

the part II of the sea expedition

the kayaking into storm;

kayaking in the rain the waves again

the keeping of kayaks

the keeping of our stalls

the trading for lost items in our stalls

the souveneirs!! :DD

the parting of ways the real outward bound begins..

KURT:

BOON- kurt's instructor!

DANICA- the sweetest and my best bud in the watch (PLMGS)

FIONA- the bu chuo girl (PLMGS)

CHARMAINE- the one who always take the initiative (PLMGS)

AMANDA- the loud and funny one

SUE- the funky girl (KCP)

NARLAN- the quiet one (KCP)

ROS- quiet BUT really helpful (KCP)

LESLIE, YAO GUANG, JARED- the clowns, the jokers, and the excellent chefs (WSS, WSS, KCP)

JEROMY- the seaX leader (RV)

NAISHENG- the navigator and the blur-cute one (RV)

FONGYEE- the strong, determined one and the encourager! (RV)

CHAIYING- the cute adorable girl (RV)

HWEE LIAN- the one who eats alot! (WSS)

love you guys alot. thanks for EVERYTHING!

2006-05-01T17:43:00.000+08:00

MY GREEN PENICL!

MY GREEN PENCIL!!

i didn't find it tho. lols-

wen yao bought it for me, and wrote a card too. im so touched.

it may not have the sentimental value that was there before, but it sure has a new one now =D

THANKS ALOT!

i didn't think that i would have another one again. its really ex.

hahahs! now i can ~~cancel~~ this in the column of my 'want' list!

AH!

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO THANK HIM!

2006-05-01T17:29:00.000+08:00

MISS,

MISSING,

MISSED!

jie, no worries yeah? haha. i'll be missing you too!

it'll just be 5 days and then you'll see me again! muahahahah.

oh, then i'll be going off again for sarawak. lols.

AGAIN, it'll be fast. just 3 days!

=DDD

2006-04-27T22:37:00.000+08:00

STAINED GLASS MASQUERADE

is there anyone that fails

is there anyone that falls

am i the only one in church today feeling very small

cause when i take a look around

everybody seems so strong

i know they'll soon discover

that i don't belong

so i tuck away, like everything's okay

if i make them all believe it, maybe i'll believe it too

so with a painted grin,

i play the part again

so everyone will see me the way i see them

are we happy plastic people

under shiny plastic steeples

with walls around our weakness

and smiles to hide our pain

but if the invitation's open

to every heart that has been broken

maybe then we close the curtain

on our stained glass masquerade

is there anyone who's been there

are there any hands to raise

am i the only one who's traded in the altar for a stage

the performance is convincing

and we know every line by heart

only when no one is watching

can we really fall apart

but would it set me free

if i dared to let you see

the truth behind the person

that you imagine me to be

would your arms be open

or would you walk away

would the love of Jesus

be enough to make you stay

well, if the invitation's open

to every heart that has been broken

maybe then we'll close the curtain

on our stained glass masquerade

is there anyone that fails

is there any one that falls

am i the only one...

2006-04-26T17:49:00.000+08:00

YOU HURT

as i sat at the holding area of 970, i enjoyed the sound of the rain; raining down.

as 975 moved off slowly, it was as tho the curtains to the stage were drawing open. and there, the show began.

i saw rain falling,

the many dots of rain hitting the road,

the rear of buses,

the gloomy sky,

bukit panjang..

eventually, everyone seems to disappear;

all fading away,

leaving me behind, seated there waiting for the bus to arrive.

i find me myself and i facing the 'stage' right there, all alone.

this little skit here, is all filled with a bunch of liars, a bunch of backstabbers, a bunch of irrnoying people.

all the empty promises,

the countless stares from her..

that's right! you're just putting up an act, a filthy act.

you're just acting as tho you care,

you're just acting..

im not blind, neither am i invisible.

i DO have feelings, which you do not consider.

hahs, doesnt matter now; you've got yourself a new toy!

~~im better off being by myslef,~~

~~noone here is worth getting along with.~~

2006-04-19T17:19:00.000+08:00

ONE BAND, ONE SOUND

today, my school band went to the national stadium for the full-dress rehearsal for the SYF this saturday. they left during the period right after recess to dress up and practice a few time before leaving for the stadium. so, when we were having maths, they played. it was really loud. DUH. i though it was really nice. haha. i got distracted; wasn't paying attention to my teacher, we couldn even hear her.

the band played their whole piece, and for the first time, i heard it. it didn't have any breaks or stops in between- the FULL piece. i really thought it was really good. they played together, and it wasn't messy. hahaha. =D it made me want to go for the SYF on saturday to support them. but then again, i don't feel like it. i mean, i have common test next week! not only me, yeah i know. WE have common test next week! how are we gonna study and pass if our saturday is totally booked for SYF?! sobs. help! hm.. in the first place, hehehex, it's actually compulsory. but... =/

everytime i hear the band play, it makes me feel like joining band. ayes.

but i know its really tough, and sometimes tiring.

BUT either ways, i don't think i'll be able to if i have the chance.

I CANT READ NOTES, I DON'T DO THEORY!

argh-

had CCA today, but mr chang didn't come, so we didn't watch disc 2 of "nobody knows"!

SOBS

wei lin and i were so looking forward to it..

oh well. hopefully he'll turn up next week.

2006-04-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

In Christ alone

my hope is found

He is my light, my strength, my song

This Cornerstone, this solid ground

Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love, what depths of peace

When fears are stilled, when strivings cease

My Comforter, my All in All

Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone,

who took on flesh

Fullness of God in helpless babe

This gift of love and righteousness

Scorned by the ones He came to save

‘Til on that cross as Jesus died

The wrath of God was satisfied

For every sin on Him was laid

Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay

Light of the world by darkness slain

Then bursting forth in glorious Day

Up from the grave He rose again

And as He stands in victory

Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me

For I am His and He is mine

Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death

This is the power of Christ in me

From life’s first cry to final breath

Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell, no scheme of man

Can ever pluck me from His hand

‘til He returns or calls me home

Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

BLESSED GOOD FRIDAY-

2006-04-11T22:53:00.000+08:00

SAY CHEESE!

we had class photo taking today; the first year book for this shcool will be printed this year. haha. the 2 previous batches must be really furious! hahas.

its funny how people say, " a picture is worth a thousand words".

i used to believe that, but, it hit me today when we had our photos taken as a class. it's like- when someone volunteers to take a picture for you, everyone would want to look pretty in it, and smile sweetly..blah blah. but it's only for that instant moment where that fake smile or fake expression is captured in some "high tech portable machine". i mean, that emotions, the expressions, the looks, the feelings, all that is seen in that picture when its viewed, is just the fake thing.

it ain't real.

two could be fighting and arguing and hating each other before the shot, but look so happy, so cheerful, so merry together when the picture is taken.

right?

i mean,

to me, i may have interpret this well known phrase in a different way, but does it make sense? im sure it does.

i felt it today..

it's so phony-

just leave me be,

tired of complaining and throwing unwanted tantrum around.

totally aware that its completely useless,

i'm useless.

i'm just like what is potrayed in that picture taken today.

the fake smile captured on camera.

no one would notice, YEAH ME!

-.-

2006-04-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

CHOCOLATE FONDUE

i'm beginning to feel really lazy to blog. sometimes, i feel like deleting my blog; like its not any useful and everything. weird. HAH!

you know, i got caught in the rain today-i'm pretty sure many of us did. well, when i left bukitpanjang interchange, it was just drizzling. it stopped for a moment weirdly, it grew really hot- the sun was out. yeah. and the next second.. it started to rain.

what's up with the weather?

anyway, when i alighted the bus, it rained heavier. i couldn't go anywhere, so, sadly, i had to stand there and wait.. and wait. augh. it seemed to me that it wouldn't stop soon, and that it'll just continue and prevent me from getting home in time for my TUITION. but, thankfully, it lightened after awhile. me and some others took the opportunity to dash for the traffic light to cross when it turned green- full shelter (HDB) was waiting for us on the other side of the road. the rain remained as it was; i decided to walk home and not wait under the blocks. to my dismay, as i was already half way, it started to POUR. i had no shelter, there was no blks near by, just trees and terrace houses. no where for me to hide.

perfect.

i just continued to walk.

the rain grew heavier and heavier and heavier. and what made matters worst was.. LIGHTNING AND THUNDER.

ayes.

i was focusing on the ground, watching and ensuring that i wouldn't land my feet into puddles. i couldn't afford to get my shoes soaked, not to mention my socks. SMELLY! haha. oh wtheck. no use. it was already wet, never mind.

anyway, i heard the sound of some bus slowing down behind me. i was hoping that that sound was going to invite me for a lift home. oh but nooOo~, i turned to look and saw this bus uncle looking out his door, smiling at me! he gained speed and went off, WITHOUT ME. fantastic. i mean, i knew he was a bus uncle, as in school kind. i've seen this bus around since i was in primary school.. argh! so much for kindness.

*rolls eyes*

okie. SO, to conclude, i shall learn and start to bring my umbrella.

ayes. heavy, extra load.

what's the use, im still gonna get wet with or without it.

ah wells.

i got the message from my dad when he opened the door for me..

it's funny how i can go on saying that i love the rain, i love the rain.

saying how good it feels walking in the rain, yada yada.

i REALLY do love it.

im not trying to say that, NOW i hate it and everything. but, in this kind of condition, how am i suppose to enjoy it.

LOLS. i feel stupid. HAHAH-

contradiction

2006-04-04T18:28:00.000+08:00

the misunderstood

the invisble

the rejected

the burden

the burdened

the annoyance

the irritation

the pathetic

the hopeless

the useless

the stressed

the apprehensive

the pessimistic

the unwelcomed

the neglected

the last resort

im beginning to appreciate the song "requiem for a dream" that wil sent me just a few days ago. i want more. HAH!

i give up; i give in.

2006-03-28T20:30:00.000+08:00

i'm on a chocolate hiatus.

i'm on a sweets hiatus.

i'm on a marshmallow hiatus.

i'm on a hokien-mee hiatus.

i'm on a singlish hiatus.

right. i'm going to try to write in proper enligsh and refrain from singlish and such, and all of the above. over indulgence on these would result in a really awful ending. oh well. have to mind and watch what i say and write and eat.

okay.

i had my F&N practical today. it was a trial run. my end product turned out better than i expected. i thought that it would be too burnt, or too poisonous to be edible.

see huiteng, it was THAT burnt hui teng went on during recess that i was going to burn my cookies and the kitchen and that i would fail, yada yada yada..

HAH! well, many others who tried my cookies said it was good and surprisingly pretty. funny, personally, i felt that it was of an odd shape for a cookie. it was really huge, flat, and.. weird.

hm.. it could probably pass as a baby pancake. h-OH, should have seen rand's; much bigger than mine. his could really really REALLY pass as a normal pancake.

but good job everyone! at least its only a trial, it ain't the real thing.

yeah. jasmine, CHEER UP!

2006-03-24T22:57:00.000+08:00

IM FINALLY BLOGGING!

okie. have been real lazy to update my blog, don't know why. but anyways, school has started and like i've mention in one of the previous post.. there's alot of changes made in term 2, for my school.

1 period- 1 hour, the lucky thing is that we only have 1 period for each subs during the day, so we're quite safe. at least there wouldn be 2 hours physics! X_X oOH! i just remembered, next mon, i have 2 hours of CHINESE! gosh. im sooooooooooo dead. ugh. that's the special one, other than that, only 1 period for the rest of the subs.

we're following a new timetable- as in, day 1 to day 10; odd and even weeks. yeah. i think there'll be several confusions especially when its the even week. haha! oh well.

disimissal time: mon- 2.30, TUE- 4.oo, wed-5, thurs- 2.30, friday- 12.30.

well, its only minor changes for majority of the days, but TUESDAY! augh. i don't understand why. my brain is like totally fried after 2! it won't be able to function well. HAHA. alot of us couldn either. nvm. ALL SUFFER TOGETHER! =P

so evil.

oh. wed's late timing is because of CCAs. no biggie.

okay. so i've lived thru the first week of the new changes and the new term and the first week of school. yeah! its the weekends(=

and tuition's cancelled tml. ((=

OH YEAH! forgot to mention about youth share today. gosh it was stressful, but sam and i manage to pull it off. well, close. but ah well. it's really difficult to lead, especially when there's older ones around. but that's not my main concern. my group is DEAD QUIET. its scary and really nerve-racking! wtheck. nvm. it's really a good experience. probably cause its only the beginnning, and they don't really know one another very well- must think of games to make them bond!. hm. LOL!

i need my rest. im gettting old -.-

im tired, and weak. waking up early every morning to go to school is so.......! augh. sometimes i imagine waking up everyday, EARLY IN THE MORNING, majority of the days for school. everyday throughout the year; makes it seem that i don't have a life. well, that's what i feel. sheesh. i don't even know what im talking about, doesn't make sense. oh well.

really glad that tuition's cancelled, I CAN SLEEP IN TML! =D

be my escape;

i want to run away-

2006-03-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

Tech Support: Yes. How can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located yourHeart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge andResentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override LowSelf-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness.Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have beencompletely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. Youneed to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components". What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to runon Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files:Forgive-Self; Realise Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system willoverwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also,you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile isplaying on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes a while, but eventuallyeverything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with othersand return some c

yeah! i finished all my holiday assignments + PROJECTS! =D

YEAH ME (applause)

2006-03-14T16:17:00.000+08:00

IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF

yeah. i managed to finish my A & E maths assignments yesterday with the help of VIVIEN! =D

thanks.

did my Amaths worksheet in tuition. it took me a whole of about 2 hours to complete just 8 stupid questions! eck. and she could complete my Emaths assignment, which is like 5 pages? its just ALOT. she managed to do it within that 2 hours. (her answers, i could refer to if i got stuck after tuition) when she left, i tried the Emaths paper. gosh. i practically took the whole day to complete it? i finally finished it at 12 or was it 11. =.= doesn't matter, its just THAT long. augh. can't believe it. lols. OF COURSE, in between, got a little bit distracted with stuff. BUT! still, its really long. ah.. wtheck.

the important this is that I COMPLETED IT! =DD

yeah me.

anyways, i went to school this morning to start on my social studies project. we managed to compile all the points together into powerpoint slides. i brought it back to complete the decorations and to edit. i have been at it since 2. and its 4.30 now. i haven't exactly finished it. its really "sian" to do it, find pictures and everything. getting really restless. frankly speaking, its really nothing much that i did. so its possible to say that i wasted 2 1/2 hours. perfect! argh.....

i shall do my english now, gonna try to complete it too. probably i'll continue my SS project tonight.

hopefully..

yeah. what else do i have left.. OH!

chem TYS, physics TYS, F&N project =S

gulp*

help!

2006-03-09T19:51:00.000+08:00

I LOVE A RAINY NIGHT

it hasn't rained like how it did today in a while. it has always been the soft pattering, light, short, passing cloud. well, today, proababaly it was a passing cloud too? i don't know. im not an expert in that area. anyways, i was having chinese tuition, when i heard the the soft tapping on the rooftop. i knew it was drizzling. i smiled to myself. (hm.. wonder whehter my tutor noticed) actually, i kind of expected the rain to stop.. very soon.

but, instead, it grew. the pitter-pattering of the rain seem to have drowned my tutor's voice. she had to raise her voice. my smile widen, and i broke into goosebumps. haha. chilly. she switched off the air-con and drew the sliding door. there was a gentle howl- the wind. i could feel the rain, it was coming in. i watched the leaves of the plants in her garden bend as the million raindrops fell on them. i love the rain. i don't know why. i always feel "light" whenever it rains. it's a really cool feeling.

i always pictured myself standing in the middle of no where, why my arms spread out wide open, my head looking to the sky, my eyes closed. im sure it's a common feeling?

the march holidays are just around the corner. in fact, it starts when school ends tomorrow! =D BUT. i have a dozen holiday assignments to be completed during the one week break. ARGH!!! its so not fair. isn't holidays suppose to be HOLIDAY? break from school, test, homework. ayes.

students...

i've got chem TYS/ some F&N (individual) I&E project/ english compo/ social studies project..

that's what i've got so far. don't forget, there's still on more day of school tomorrow, and i BET that there'll be maths assignments. sheesh-

there goes the holidays.

2006-03-08T19:41:00.000+08:00

IM FREE yippe yeah. =D

i totally forgot that i had CCA after school today. i was planning and thinking about what i could do after school yesterday. it was my dad who reminded me this morning while sending me to school. LOLs. we didn't learn much today; sat in a incredibly cold music room. gosh. was really freezing!

we watched some video on electric guitar by certain extreme rock guitarists. some G3 person. it's amazing how they master their fast fingerings. 0.O i wanna learn!!

i've got no test tomorrow! =DD

i feel really free and free and free. and OH! I'VE GOT HOMEWORK. -.- forgot. nvm, i think its quite little. hah-

ah wells.

i got most of my marks back already, and i ain't too happy about it. i know majority of us aren't. i really am slacking alot this year.

ever felt that you've done alot of things for someone, but you still don't feel that its appreciated? i've tried so hard. it was my fault at the beginning. but i've forgotten, i've made an effort to step forward, to come to you; making it seem that its all forgotten and it wasnt important and it didn hurt at all.

please.

you think you're always in the right. you think its ALWAYS about you. PLEASE! wake up. i've had it up to here. i can't take it anymore. the attitude you're showing me; on and off. you think it's really fun? don't act like you CARE. i see right thru your act.

you used to care, you used to understand. yeah, you can just throw me into the rubbish bin. im just some toy that you're bored with.

im so used.

i have always been..

someone get me out-

took the old route back home today. i haven't really walked there for quite a few months? have always walked by the church back gate. yeah. i went by the old way, the more hardworking and more tiring one.

the slope.

i don't know why, just felt like walking home by there. alighted the bus one stop before the usual and turned left instead of right. walked pass my family's doctor clinic, the new pub... all those. and stopped at the traffic light opposite the CC. as i watched the cars drove pass, i remembered standing there waiting for the green man to appear back when i was in secondary 1. it was a horrible year. i will never forget. and it ain't getting any better as the years go by. but anyway, that was one thing that struck me then.

i crossed the road, and found myself at the start of the long slope. o.O (here we go~ ) i started off. i noticed the new carpark that cut the pathway.

i continued walking.

i haven't walked up that slope in a really long while. i remembered i really dreaded walking home because of that slope; that was probably cause i didn't notice that there were other ways in getting home -.- yeah. especially with a school bag with heavy books in it, it really drags you down. all the more you'll just feel like stopping and let yourself roll down the slope- back to the beginning. hah! ayes.

the old days. the horrible years and the GOOD ones!

primary school =D

remembered always walking back with florence. we'd always bought chips on the way back to nibble on. and we ALWAYS complained as we walked up the slope. HAHA. its crazy.

i miss her. haven talked to her in awhile.

man i feel really old..

AS I WAS SAYING. when i reached the top, relieved, i saw what supposed to be a great patch of grass area where nicholas, guo wei, hong rui, randy and gang used to play soccer on. now, its a basketball court. ayes.

i passed florence's condo.

and there- was the park.

many many many memories: ranging from toddler age to about now? blind mice, training for NAPHA with flo, meeting gurmit singh, daily exercises again with flo.. too many to be named.

i really missed those days.

damn! i really feel old.

the pavements just outside the park is being renovated. i had to walk on the road. many things are being taken down, destroyed and renovated. i don't understand why do they have to do that. it's not ruined or spoilt or anything. it's still in good condition. and they had to just remove all these. waste of money and time and unknowingly, they may have destroyed some memories as well.

im home.

2006-03-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

DONE WITH SOCIAL STUDIES CLASS TEST 2. whew! what a relief. =D

i have ONE more last paper for the term, and that is chem; which is tomorrow. and finally! get to rest till the end of next week ((: THE MARCH HOLIDAYS-3 more days.

hee! im so glad that the march holidays are nearing. actually, come to think of it- it's quite fast. the days seem to go by faster this year compared to last year and the previous. hm.... i always remember counting down to the days of whatever holidays there were. didn't seem to concentrate on that, much. probably because of the ENDLESS test we're having. ayes. nevermind! it's gonna be over.

well, at least for this term.

i wonder what i'll do tomorrow after school.

MONDO MAGIC singapore

i managed to catch it tonight. it came out on 2nd march. i always wanted to watch it and i FINALLY did. haha. i think i have a great interest in magic?

i find that i get really amused and facinated by them. yeah, i really do enjoy watch 'em. i remember a few years back, my sis bought me this book about magic tricks- how do you do them and the tricks behind them. very interesting. was really "into" it for quite awhile. haha. and soon after, found that it was really difficult to master it; to perfect it. ah wells. i prefer watching it then doing it myself. =D

yup. and after tml's test, i can catch all the other shows on mondo magic!

-.-

2006-03-05T16:40:00.000+08:00

im SICK. fantastic! i could hardly speak this morning when i woke up, and my throat hurts ALOT. sighs. oh lucky me. =/

ah wells. i have running nose and a bad sore throat. and i had fever just now. it's quite high, but it just subsided. still kinda feverish. it's really difficult for me to complete my homework, and not to mention STUDY FOR MY TESTS tml. im so dead. i haven even touched them. argh! my head feels heavy, i feel weak, my throat is horrible, my nose is blocked. and yeah, i think i can feel a lil headache coming on. ayes.

THANK YOU- ray boltz

I dreamed I went to heaven

And you were there with me;

We walked upon the streets of gold Beside the crystal sea.

We heard the angels singing

Then someone called your name.

We turned and saw a young man running

And he was smiling as he came. And he said, "Friend you may not know me now."

And then he said, "But wait,

You used to teach my Sunday School

When I was only eight.

And every week you would say a prayer

Before the class would start.

And one day when you said that prayer,

I asked Jesus in my heart."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.

I am a life that was changed.

Thank you for giving to the Lord.

I am so glad you gave.

Then another man stood before you

And said, "Remember the time

A missionary came to your church

And his pictures made you cry.

You didn't have much money,

But you gave it anyway.

Jesus took the gift you gave

And that's why I'm here today."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.

I am a life that was changed.

Thank you for giving to the Lord.

I am so glad you gave.

One by one they came

Far as the eye could see.

Each life somehow touched

By your generosity.

Little things that you had done,

Sacrifices made,

Unnoticed on the earth

In heaven, now proclaimed.

And I know up in heaven

You're not supposed to cry

But I am almost sure

There were tears in your eyes.

As Jesus took your hand

And you stood before the Lord.

He said, "My child, look around you.

Great is your reward."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.

I am a life that was changed.

Thank you for giving to the Lord.

I am so glad you gave. Thank you for giving to the Lord.

I am a life that was changed.

Thank you for giving to the Lord.

I am so glad you gave.

so sweet! =D

love that song.

2006-03-03T17:04:00.000+08:00

AH YES!

FINALLY-

my blog's okie now. i haven't been posting and updating for the past few weeks cause my blog went hay-wire and i didn't have the patience, nor did i have the time to fix it.

these feel weeks have been very, really, very, really, SUPER crazy! test after test after test after test after test; it goes on. ever since the 3rd week? yeah, i think so. the 3rd week of jan, it has been tests and tests EVERY SINGLE WEEK. not even 1 week break. gosh. i cant keep up. i really cant. i've failed a number of tests already, and im really discouraged by it. i would keep telling myself that its useless, it's gonna be really difficult. i know it may be only the 1st term, the 3rd month only, but there's this voice in my head.. i don't know. sighs.

its really different, from sec 2. the study style that you've used then is totally useless now. well, that's for me. using that style, i just cant score. i really wonder how im gonna keep up. if i were to count my LR15 (is that how they call it?), i think i won't be able to make it to a JC. probably well get some ugly 30 points or something. AH crap. the environment that im studying in isnt helping at all. in fact, its making it really WORST!

my gosh!

please don't act like you care-

okie. this week's tests => GEOG.boy am i glad that that's over. E-MATHS. i have no confidence here. i didn't complete the last question. 7 marks gone. sobs. ENGLISH. i hope, i hope, i hope! CHINESE. oh my! haha. to fail for this, its nothing new to me. hah!

next week- chem/ physics/ social studies.

and to top that off. i've got tons and heaps of homework for this weekend. and, i think im considering to drop FnN. its too much work. though the information and knowledge is really useful and interesting.

did you know that the addiction to coffee and tea would make you more prone to osteoporosis?

did you know that you shouldn sleep on your sides? ( i know its impossible, but try to fall asleep laying on your back =S)

did you know that your heart well stop beating, sometimes? (but you won't die.. yet)

did you know that there's a WILSON DISEASE?! (hah!)

did you did you know that you should eat youre fruit BEFORE meals and not AFTER?

did you know......

hm. okie. i don't really have my textbook with me now, but so far, i think all these has caught my attention. muahahha. its really interesting. haha.

i love the praticals too- cooking. okie okie. i know, i know. MOST of ya'll know that i cant cook. probably would give food posioning to anyone who trys my cooking, but wtheck! i've improved. hehex. its kinda fun =D

ayes. i don't want, i don't wish to fail for anymore subs. its too big for my small heart. hee! =D

shucks! im gonna be late for YF!

2006-02-21T19:47:00.000+08:00

check out Britney Spear's abs! myGoodness. hahaha. whoooooooo~

was watching her MTV- im a slave for you, on TV. oh lucky her. flat tummy, nice curves. sheesh! some people just have all the luck. hahahah! 0.O

FINALLY! social studies' class test 1 is over, after all the postponing for weeks! augh. ah wells. F&N class test 1 is the last one, BUT. we're not able to rest, because CLASS TEST 2 is nearing. gosh. i don't think i can keep up. my F&N test is on thursday, and on friday, its A-maths class test 2.

anyways, i had chinese PST today. it wasn't that bad as i pictured it. hee. the teacher is actutally good and patient! hehehex. its kind of funny- all 11 of us, speaking in english while teacher's speaking to us in chinese. whenever she says some strange/ new word, she'll explain it, and we'll ask among ourselves in english and give ourselves and english meaning for the particular word or phrase. its really funny.

IT'S BACK, JUST WHEN WE THOUGHT HE WAS NICE, JUST WHEN WE WERE RELIEVED FROM THE TIMING..

its the time-table, the dismissal timing. its totally crazy! and i really mean CRAZY! i've heard that mr seet (principal) has decided to change our dismissal time to 4p.m. WTHeck. i still can remember, when i was sec one, our previous principal had very late dismissal timings for us. it kept changing. 3.30/4.30/5? this three. gosh. imagine how burnt out we were. the teachers too. and despite all the complaints that parents and students AND teachers gave, he refused to change the timing. when he left our school this year, mr seet took over and he changed the timing to 2.05p.m! its the earliest among all the dismissal timings we had, well, of course friday's an execption. yeah. and apparently, for this 1 and a 1/2 month, he has come to a conclusion that we're taking advantage of the privilege that he had given us =.='' very good. very very good. hais. and in addition, the timing isin't the only thing that is makes this whole topic crazy, infact its RIDICULOUS. our normal periods that are 35 min each is going to be changed to 1hour each! imagine having 2 periods of.. er.. maths? SS? geog?!!!! THAT'S LIKE HOW LONG. argghhh..

this is ultimately fantastic. just great. just lovely. what is the school coming to?

guess its just a student's life huh?
ayes. just when i was enjoying the early dismissal. its really going to be inconvenient for those students who live far away from the school. namely, ME! sighs. what is there's test the following day? or having a ridiculous pile of homework to be completed by the next day? gosh. there's just not enough time.

ah yes. a student's life.

don'tactasifyoucare.don'tevenTRY.

itdoesn'tmatter.imgettingusedtoit.iunderstand.

youjustdunseemtonoticewhatyou'redoing.

idunwanttopullyou.idunwantto.imfine.

ireallyam.ikeepgivingin,andforgetting.

anddon'tworry,

imusedtoit.

i let the dark cloud guide me home.

2006-02-18T20:53:00.001+08:00

DOM has left for australia this afternoon. most of the YFers sent him off, i was there. was really sad to see him leave. haha. we won't be able to see him for the YF activities- camps, outings, etc. wont be able to see him during YF and on sundays. ayes. we're gonna miss you! :'( its going to be 2 years. people, please remember him in your prayers!

boy do i feel foolish yesterday.

after yesterday's YF worship, i really felt that i wasn't ready to play for the 11.30 service. it's too much pressure for me i guess. ayes.

many thanks to jeff, mich, aaron, benita, small sam, darius, crystal, jie for your encouragements! =D and congrats to terence and joel for getting throught your auditions. hahaha! welcome to the YF music min!

2006-02-14T18:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
i had heaps of chocs today. GOSH. just continued on and on and on and on on the sinful bars. hahaha. could see many girls holding roses in their hands, with a huge smile on their faces. so sweet! hahaha. going to plaza saw me thosands of couples holding hands and being- er.. , yeah. you know. hahas. mm. was with jas, shikin, huiteng, hui miang, rowena and pauline at plaza after school. just hung around, walked around.. to kill time. i kept some chocs that were given to me. wanted to take pics of it, for memory and all. YES YES, i know its seriously ridiculous and foolish, and wierd and stupid and lame. but, hahha. just for the fun of it. LOL. yeah. BUT! most of them melted. super gross. there was one- "mercy", from hui ying, IT MELTED AND STAINED MY BAG! melted all over in one of the pockets of my bag. i still have yet to clean it up. augh.
-a lovely heart-shaped card and a mercy bar(which i sadly failed to eat) from hui ying. -the famous Ferr. chocs: 1 from grace, 2 from hui teng.

-lots of unfamous, but nice, chocs from victor!

-heart-shaped choc from mr seah! (he's sooooooooooo nice=D)

am offically going for OBS! woohoo. hehehex. yeah. cant wait. mwhahahah! during P.E lesson today, mr soh asked who wanted to go for OBS and i raised my hand. teehee. -__-''

was asked to play for the 11.30 service band! OMgosh.

i dont think im ready, and i panic too much; for YF worhsip itself is already kinda tough for me? what's more for SERVICE!!! ah..

i really don't know if i should consider or not. i really dont think im ready. ~~but~~. nevermind, i'll pray about it. hm....service. its a big thing. a HUGE thing. ayes.

2006-02-13T16:40:00.000+08:00

as i walked home;

the sun before be, the dark clouds behind me. what a combination? im just right in the middle.

its so humid and uncomfortable.

i dislike it. do you know that? nope, i s'pose you dont. you guys wont. hah! its funny how friends can make you go crazy, in a bad way. its irritating when they keep repeating about one's family background. as if you dont have troubles too. as if you live a "perfect" life. cant one have a say in some things? cant one have an opinion too? cant one be heard? well, guess not for this one. not gonna bother giving any opinions in things. just "whatever". just when you feel that you found someone that you can open up to, that the person does understand you and everything, it just goes wrong somewhere, something said ticks you and changes what you feel and all. which isnt gonna make a difference cause the person doesn know a thing! acutally, it doesnt matter; "forgive and forget".

its just a small matter, no big deal!

i boarded the bus, hoping that the dark clouds wound open the water gates and let everything flow, NOW. it drizzled. and it got heavier and slightly heavier. but it didn get any much heavier than that-.- i was hoping that it would continue. i noticed that as the bus entered bukit timah zone, the grasses were wet, the road was wet, the pavement had a darker.. it must have rained just now. i alighted the bus. humidity was all i felt. the sun shining down. the smell of the rain.

i felt so sticky and crappy.

im home now. and its quite dark outside. and im here hoping, again, that the rain would come, to listen as the rain tap a soft rhythm on the roof.

and yes, as im writing now, im beginning to hear it. =D i feel slightly better..

ah shucks, and it stops.

forgive and forget

forgive and forget.

"come just as you are

hear the spirit call

come just as you are

come and see

come recieve

come and live forever

life everlasting

strength for today

taste the living water

and never thirst again."

the song has been running thru my head today. its a really nice song. its new to me ((:

sang it during the PnP. ayes.

penning your thoughts down really helps to relieve your anger and everything. i feel much better now.

to forgive and forget.

2006-02-12T21:58:00.000+08:00

YF music min outing!

the games were simple, but i had fun. actually, frankly speaking, i expected sports as the games and all. but its okie, it doesn matter. i had a great time. i LOVED the prayer and praise. it was GREAT! AWESOME! AMAZING! GOOD! SPLENDID! SUPERB! LOVELY! what other words?! haha. it was just.. augh! you know what i mean. not enough words to describe it. fantastic job. haha. it was on the roof top- open air and all. amazing! i really felt that it was a perfect place to worship. whoa! yeah. we had the speakers, projector, the screen, wires and everything that's set up inside; its just moved outside. really amazing! OMGosh. its like, the whole area around the church could hear all our praises. the whole 3 hours! it was loud, and great. let everyone know that HE's our GOD! i adored it! =D good job aaron, Jeff, dom, chris. among all the songs, there was this unique one. "thankyou" it was dedicated to our one and only DOM! we sang it to him, actually its more of "from Jeff to dom" kinda thing. so sweet. the song was really really REALLY sweet and so meaningful. some of us teared. sniff. sad. Dom's leaving next week. hais. =(

ayes.

actually, i felt like requesting to have our friday YF on the rooftop. hahah. but one second thought, nah.. hahah. if it rains.. yeah. so guess not. but it was really a good venue! haha. when you sing, and you look up, you see the stars, the clouds, the MOON, you can feel the breeze- God's creation. and what's more, you're on the ROOFTOP! hahas. really good. i really did enjoy myself yesterday. it was really powerful :)

okie. finally i went to get a haircut, more of a trim. well, at least tidy up. hehehx. now, its more under control. haha! mm. i've got 3 more class test coming up this following week.

tues- SS

wed- chem

thurs- F and N

and its all over! haha. and im pretty sure that the next class test is just around the corner. hah! ah wells.

lorraine's so sweet! she made cookies for Vday. gave them out today. =D i didnt want to eat it up, it just too sweet. but i ate it in the end. X) haha. i took a picture of eat before i gobbled it down. haha. i'll upload it another time. lazy. hehx.

2006-02-07T18:42:00.000+08:00

i want a haircut

i NEED a haircut. lols!

stayed back to support class in soccer match against school team. well, initially its against 4A. but they did not manage to get the field 'cause the soccer team were using the field. so.. 3A and 4A combined. it was really hot! the sky was SO BLUE, and there was puffy clouds too. so nice, but SO HOT!!! well, i think i got abit sun-burnt. -.- nvm. anyway, the match started at 4.30, ended around 6 plus. obviously the school team won. expected. if not, i bet their coach would give them more training! hahas. well, at least it was kinda enjoyable to watch? interesting. you know, as we were watching the match, i noticed that the grass were swaying when the wind blew by. as in, i never observed this and notice such tiny movement in such a large area; especially when we're suppose to be focusing on the match and all. well, the grass weren't exactly swaying (makes it seem that the grass' long), its more of a vibrating movement? yeah. quite relaxing to look at- at the same time with the wind in your face. (: mm. after the match, i called my dad to come and pick me up- it was late already, and i don't think i'd wanna make my exhuasting journey back home at that kind of hour. yupp. but i felt SUPER bad. my friends, one WHOLE GROUP, actually waited with me-for me, till my dad came. i kept asking them to go back, "im fine", but they kept insisting that they'll wait. =S i feel so so so so bad! sobsXsXsx.

THANKS! =D

about the OBS thing. i gave my name to geraldine today. but not confirmed yet. i approched jessica and asked her about how it was last year.

-CANT BATHE EVERYDAY

-EVEN IF YOU HAD THE CHANCE, ITS IN SEAWATER-.-

-PEE-ING AND BUSINESS'ES; DIG A HOLE AND ta~daaa!

-ITS EITHER MOBILE OR STATIONARY

well, that's all i got. its a good experience tho. if you miss this chance, that's it.. i guess. but still. i wanna go, im still thinking about it. lols.

deadline is; by the end of this week. ah! i dunnoe.

i have a feeling that im gonna miss 5 days of class! and that's alot! my parents wouldn support me if that's the case. i have to check if i would be missing class. if not, i'll be missing out on a once in a lifetime chance? well, at least to me.

2006-02-06T16:10:00.000+08:00

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i didn't know that there was something wrond with blogger? hahas. nvm. just saw this just now- better blog now. LOL -.-

should i go or should i not?

shoulg i go or should i not?

heh. OBS is in may. mr soh made an announcement to the sec 3s, its not compulsory for everyone nor is it for the leaders. its just for the leaders actually. OH! ITS RAINING! opps. sorry. haha. erm..yeah. its just for leaders only, again its not compulsory for them too. so im kinda considering, im interested.. yet at the same time, a little afraid. haha. high elements, the dark, in the jungle, ghost?! =S ah wells. i dunnoe. we were suppose to approach jessica today after school, but i forgot. yeah. wanted to ask her for more information about it. actually, i dun mind rock climbing and all, real fun. but, abseiling? that.. probably abit worried. but anyway, im still considering. hm..

lovely. the weather these few days is a killer. its blazing hot in the morning and afternoon, then dark clouds would gather during the evening, and PROBABLY would drizzle. i dun think it'll rain, as in really rain.

this afternoon, it rained just for a short while. it was really bright, then the classroom became quite dark and it FINALLY poured. i was waiting and anticipating the rain. i was really happy that it rained.. but not for long. yupp, the rain stopped within a 5-10 mins. it didn't last long. bummer.

2006-02-04T12:57:00.000+08:00

HAS ANYONE SEEN MY JAY CHOU CDs?

IT'S MISSING!! shucks. i know i lent it to someone. but i just cant remember who that someone is! OMgosh. it has been missing for like about 2 years? ah! i dunnoe. probably more than that. sobs-

screwed up yesterday. screwed up yesterday. i haven't played for the YF for some time, abit shaky already. augh. anyways, yesterday, christina was the worship leader! i love her choice of songs, the way she arranges them, the way she links them, HER VOICE! oh~

beautiful. haha. anyways, yeah. i screwed up man! hahah. and i think im getting old-HAH. don't know why, after prac before YF, i just suddenly forgot where im suppose to come in and all for most of the songs. -.- ah wells.

oh. and after yf, the usual thing- went for dinner. Leon, weisong, tengjin and i came back to the church office after that to "jam". there was a guitar and a... oh shucks! i forgot what that thingy's called! haha.anyways,. yeah. benita came after that i played the thingy for a while. so cool! she taught me. heeheeex =D its some kind of percussion.

yeah man! it rained-

and it still is, fine drizzle! =D

i should have known

2006-02-01T17:53:00.000+08:00

im missing KL.

sighs. sobs. hais. ayes.

the 5 days went by super fast. and its equal to the 5 days of schooling! and that is considered long. how can the Lunar new year holiday go by so so fast?! shucks. =( ah wells.

"time flies when you're having fun" all good things will come to an end...

bought quite a number of clothes and a pair of shoes from KL. YEAH man! =D cheap and good. mm. i miss posha. i miss my aunties. i miss my grandparents. i miss the new year goodies. i miss bai nian-ning. i miss the apartment that i stayed in. i miss shopping. i miss the fun. i miss the steam boat, and all the other good food. i miss KL!

i was close to falling asleep in maths class! -.-

2006-01-23T21:16:00.000+08:00

SYNOD CAMP WAS SO FUN!

want to go back there again. Jubilee church is big!! and i like the sleeping area. teehee ((X oh well, was really in the holiday mood then. sobs. only lasted for 2 days. augh! couldn it be longer? im exhuasted from the camp now. feeling really sleepy in class, but nvm, I HAD FUN! =]

i really enjoyed the second day- sentosa! we did the low elements. i LOVED the gigantic see-saw! heaps of fun. loved that one. love love love love love-

3 more days to malaysia!

one test down, 4 more to go. chem's tml. oh oh! i think im gonna die for maths. i dun understand a thing now. arghh! both (A) and (E) maths. SHUCKS. the teacher can continue to talk to the whiteboard.

hais. i pity him and all, but he really can explain properly.

im super superSUPER blurr in his class. NOT ONLY ME, the others too.

2 years! 2 years! wonder how i'll fair for o'levels. opps. too far, end of year?

i read my aunt's blog the other. im inspired! she writes really well. wanna learn to write that way. hm... im motivated to start reading more books. haha.

oh today, i had my english test. hais. all the more, it made me want to start picking up the habit to read books. i think i should..

i think i should.

i will..

i will!

i hope.......

unlucky unlucky, can i count this as unlucky?

2006-01-13T23:07:00.000+08:00

TODAY'S FRIDAY THE 13TH hahaha. superstition-

anything unlucky happen to you today? HAHAHA. well, for me.. hm.. im not superstitious and all; just for fun only. haha. anyways, it didn rain today! sobs. haha. hm.. i got caught for not wearing my tie after school -.- argh. pris couldn make it for practice so i covered for her, and ended up with all the FAST songs that i cant really keep up with! augh. but i pulled thru =D does that count as suay? HAHAHAHAH.

what crap!

whee. i've got lots of homeworke for the weekend. how great!

tml morning, probably would go for soccer and probably i'll just sit one corner and watch them play. haha. i still have my wounds, recovering already; their all dried up, im just being catious. dun wanna get 'zham' by the ball and whahahahaha.. there goes the recovering wounds.

ah!! sad. this year, i've got a hunch that the attendance for YF will drop, ALOT. the sec 4's this year is the biggest batch, well that year (1990), they also have been. and their having O's. i dun think they'll be as regular as before. argh. so much for the fun people. ah shucks.

anyways, please pray for them; pray for their preperations for the big exam and all. mm. =D

yawns!-

2006-01-12T19:39:00.000+08:00

misery does love company.

so, let it rain, let it rain, let it rain!

raindrops are falling on my head, dadadadadlala~

2006-01-08T14:37:00.000+08:00

rain rain rain rain rain rain RAIN!

i really like the rain now, now that school has started. don't know why. i just like it to rain when im in school, i feel so much better. hahahs.

anyways, today's promotion sunday!

uncle yao wah isn out teacher anymore. sobs. our new teacher is uncle kenneth chiew! hahah. heard his kinda fun too. looking forward to his lessons! whee.

oh oh! he called me, joanne chiew (his daughter), joanne tong and grace to stay back to practice some act for next week's lessons. so cool. doing some mime thingy. hahaha!

well, im not the one acting, im narrating =D

mm. 1 week of school as gone by. yeah! 1 week -.-

well. tomorrow is when the real lessons start; all the prefects would come back cos sec 1 orientation is over. yupp. gonna see how pack the classroom would be tomorrow. haha! 44 students! arrgh. actually, im kinda regretting the combi i picked for this year. hm.. too late for that huh? cant make anymore changes. SIGHS. time flies really fast. im already sec 3! next year i'll be sec 4; SWEET SIXTEEN- hais. i really feel like turning back time.

OHOHOHOH! my wounds are healing!! =DDDDD super duper happy. kehehehehe. it doesn hurt anymore. but i still got to put the cotton wool thing to protect it, in case i fall again and break the new skin :X that better not happen. hahaha. alot of my friends say that i might fall many times this year cos i fell on the first of jan, the first day of the year. HAH! please please please. dun curse me man. hahaha. well, it already happened twice. as in, i ALMOST fell. hahah. one in school, one at home. *shiver* ah wells. its kinda embarrassing to fall at this age? haha. i mean, its kinda hard to fall now right? well. i dunnoe. i know i had quite a number of nasty falls in primary school. LOL! will never forget the one whereby i rolled down the slope in pei hwa, I WAS PRIMARY ONE!!! hahahah.

2006-01-01T22:07:00.000+08:00

whee. i managed to get myself a new year present.

ABRASIONS. nasty. lols!

last night, after the watch night service, the youths stayed over at weisong's house. i was there. some of us played soccer, and we brought it out onto the road. hehx. yupp. we were running back to the house when i tripped and fell! sobs.

according to darius and sarah (who were behind me), i fell foward and slided, thus rubbed against the road. ouch!*

so. now, i have an ugly patch on my right elbow and on my left knee.

some scratches on my right knee and some on my hip bone and i burnt my left palm and i cant really bend my left hand fingers.

great job vanessa!

ah wells. it really hurts. sniff sniff.

i took 1 hour ++ to bathe today k!? sobs sobs.

the stinging pain is still here, and i cant really walk properly. ahhhhhh! just GREat! nvm.

what is done, is done.

lots of thanks to my sis, wenyao, darius and sarah! =DDDD oh. SORRY aaron and jia hui!!! thought you guys were asleep already. hehex. yupp.

hehehehex. sarah taught me a new game- HAIDAI!!!!!!~ lols. has so much fun playing it for the past 2 nights. wahaha.

oh! omega night was great.

the lame skit was kinda funnie. good job!

mr international-------- JO!!

miss international-------- PRIS!!

wahahah. oh yeah! there was the movie outing; chronicles of narnia! the movie was realy really REALLY good. haha. but if you already read the book, then watch the movie, kinda like spoiler. haha. oh wells. nvm. hm... school is about to start very very soon. I DUN WANT TO GO BACK!!! sniff. i feel so home just right here, where i am; hais. 9 more months of torture. augh! anyways,H APPY NEW YEAR!

stupid com!

2005-12-20T10:42:00.000+08:00

AUGH! so idiotic.

i xing xing ku ku write out everything about camp and all that has happened last week and all.. i wrote SUPER long! and guess what? i wanted to upload pics to the post, so i connected the camera to the com and the com just rebooted on its own lor! then everything just shut down and.. augh. the super super long post is gone.

ahhhhhhhhh!

forget it already lah.

i dun want to re-write. sighs.

anyways, the YF camp was really GREAT! just that, sobs, it went by so fast. hais. i miss camp. oh oh! PETER ROCKS! muahahah. -.-

TL: nic

Atl: ME!!!

memebers: lorraine, bennie, philana, jireh, issac, ni wen, aaron goh and lynette. yupp yupp. that's my group. =D

anyways, after camp, i had alot; and i mean ALOT of things to do- spring cleaning, christmas concert prac, christmas shopping, make cards and gifts! wha. i almost died. wahahaha. X) yupp, just wanna thank mich, pris and grace for helping me thru the concert. =)

okiedokie. its christmas! i had a nice christmas lunch with the family and relatives, as usual. mm. yummie! and we also happily opened presents from one another :D

wondering why im not inside?? i took the photo -.-

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Babysitting

2005-12-12T22:16:00.000+08:00

HAH! New cure for insomnia- DOTA. "im sure" lols. anyways, andrea came over today!!! whee. we had to babysit lil Tristan and chloe, they came over today, from like 2 to 8? yea. THANKS ANDREA! =) it was really really really REALLY difficult to get them to take their afternoon naps. augh. the lil boy was the most difficult one. well, at least he slept. chloe didnt. it took Tristan 1 and a 1/2 hours to sleep! he was really active. yeah. chloe laid in bed obediently but didn manage to sleep at all. but nvm, at least she kinda had her rest in bed? =P ahhhh!! YF camp is in 2 days time. i haven started on christmas cards! i haven thought of birthday gifts for the december babies! i haven completed my hol homework! i haven thoroughly cleaned my room! oh boy. that's alot. i doubt i have time. hehx.

oh wells. that's what you get if you don't manage your time well.

it was on auto! we rushed and just dumped the camera infront of us. i know it looks kinda weird with the wadrobe at the side. wahahah-

the 2 lil ones!

seeing you it kills me now! ; right. im too young.

2005-12-11T11:49:00.000+08:00

yeah! im darker now. hehex. 3 more days to camp!! part of me is excited and the other isnt. well, when camp comes im sure the days will just fly by. then the following week is CHRISTMAS! how fast is that? christmas. that'll mean 2 things; my favourite occassion and "GOODBYE 2005, HELLO 2006 and "GOODBYE holidays, HELLO *sniff sniff* school.." yep. ah wells. okie! i shall not think about school, i shall NOT think about school. im gonna have as much fun as i can for these remaining weeks of my holidays!

anyway. i really cant take it. why cant i sleep?! EVERY NIGHT. its really gets annoying and im getting fed up. whatever i try to do to make myself tired/sleep,- it just doesnt work! augh. i think its insomnia. great! im suffering from a sleeping disorder? sighs. it has been 36 days since..

1 month plus already! i think i really have insomnia. shoot* this is just great.

-Insomnia is a sleep disorder characterized by an inability to sleep and/or to remain asleep for a reasonable period during the night. Sufferers typically complain of being unable to close their eyes or 'rest their mind' for more than a few minutes at a time. Insomnia is often caused by fear, stress, and anxiety.-

you came again=/ it kills me.

sleep deprivation

2005-12-10T01:01:00.000+08:00

I CANT SLEEP

.I CANT SLEEP

..I CANT SLEEP

...I CANT SLEEP

....I CANT SLEEP

.....I CANT SLEEP

......I CANT SLEEP

.......I CANT SLEEP

........I CANT SLEEP

.........I CANT SLEEP

..........I CANT SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you came today =/

2005-12-04T20:00:00.000+08:00

the weather is so fine! clear blue sky in the morning, well, maybe not THAT clear, of course there were clouds here and there, but the sky was really blue. the sun was really bright, was kinda hot tho, but good weather for a swim!!! hahas. yupp. i went for a dip with my aunt after church. after the the swim, we headed up to the apartment and washed up. yea, then we made origami-s. the picture you see on the left is a plane? haha.. weird looking huh? but anyways, its some glider thingy i guess. haha. flies in a cute way? LOL. turns and stuff. ah wth, i know nth about this kind of stuff. HAHA. -.- okie. OHOH! im watching harry potter on tues! whee. hehex. =] FINALLY!

augh. im kinda lazy to finish up my blog. hehex. ah wells. i'll do it another time. =P hm... wonder what im gonna do tml. better spend my time wisely. cant waste em. its already december, and jan 06 is gonna come. NOOOoooOOoOo! hais. oh wells. =/ i wanna go and shop!! well, im not really a shopping kind of person, wun last for long in a shopping mall -.-, but still, i wanna get new stuff. hehehehex! =DDD .jiE, you promised to take me shopping!!! =P

you came today=X

new skin. new month. new...

2005-12-03T17:20:00.000+08:00

butterflies in my stomach- flutter flutter.

thanx to my sis! she pointed out this skin to me. =DD okie, i know that the lines at the side is abit off, but im working on it!! im tired now. i'll just adjust it another time.

NFSmw is really fun! haha, one of the lastest games right? well, my sis, small sam, weisong and me went over to darius' house to play it last night. haha. was really fun! im not really good at it tho. keep slamming and crashing into the signs and walls. hehx. but nvm.. (;

oh oh! the thai mission trip team is leaving for thailand tonight. please pray for them!

just a little bit of..

2005-11-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

just a lil bit of faith, grace and providence. God will make a way. i just need faith! help me. please. please bring me out of this mess; make a way for me.

mm. this week is gonna be a very hectic week for me. well, at least finally have something to do and not just stoneing at home. heh. tues- pri 6, sec1, sec2 outing!!! wed- CCA in school, rush back to church for YFcamp prac. thurs-YFcamp prac again, then after that, hafta meet beni for briefing. hm.. well, im really kinda hoping that this business would get my mind of the things. hais.. it better.

wasted the first month

2005-11-26T18:48:00.000+08:00

sighs. i've wasted the first month-rotting at home, stoning..doing nothing really. oh wells. anyways. this morning, i went for soccer. there were a lot of people there man. haha. 3 dads and the rest, the youths. hehex. i came late. i didn participate in the training, warm up, and even the game. hehx. so much for going for soccer huh? but wait, lol. when i came, they were already in the the middle of a match. i saw evan and jia hui by the side, wasn playing i guess. went over to join them. we just talked and watched the game. lol. wanted to join the game, but there were just too many people. its kinda hard right? very low chance of getting the ball, rather just watch. better. hehex. yeah. during the 2nd match, some of us who werent playing, formed a small circle and started kicking the ball to each other. LOL. kinda fun actually. lol. what do you know, i played. LOL. =P didn really waste the morning. heh. yeah. then when its over, we went back to church to wash up and then headed for lunch!! hehehx. mm. yeah. after that, log min ppl went for their camp, some others went off. i stayed in church to accompany pris until round 2 b4 she left for her thai meeting. yupp. playing guitar, nth much really. lol. yeah. and it started to rain when i wanted to leave. hehex. so cold. well, i dun really wish for it to rain now. i mean, december, there's gonna be alot of activities going on in church. its really gonna be a bummer if it'll be cancelled cause of the rain. =( oh wells.

oh! "harry potter and the goblet of fire", "sky high", "chicken little", "chronicles of narnia". hm... yeah. should be bout it.mm. anyone who wants to watch these shows, look me up? i haven gotta chance to watch em. well, aside form chicken little and chronicles of narnia. ((X

running bear running bear!!!

2005-11-24T15:50:00.000+08:00

i went to help out at PAP at blk 9.

eileen and ms cheng called me yesterday to ask me to join them.

btw, ms cheng is my ex-kindergarden teacher; one of my ALL TIME FAV TEACHER!!!

(i was from glory kindergarden not PAP, fyi.)

eileen is my childhood friend who has been with me since K1 all the way to P6.

well, now, not in the same school. sniff.

anyways,

i went over in the morning to help out with the holiday classes.

there were the nesery, K1 and K2 classes. not really that big. haha.

ya. they made volcanoes that really overflowed "lava".

haha. mind you, IT WAS THE FRIST TIME MAKING ONE. lol,

i was so facinated. LoL

they made their dough, of course with our help *ahem*.

kinda fun, but was kinda messy too. had paint and flour all over.

ya. they moulded it around their empty yakult(wrong spelling?) bottles that was already stuck to a plastic plate. they also cut out small lil trees and dinos that they drew. haha.

was really fun just watching them.heh.

there was another class, doing the RUNNING BEAR activity.

SO CUTE~

i remember doing that in K1.

my class performed. hahahaa. was loads of fun.

ms cheng taught them the runnning bear thingy. hahaa.

really brought back memories. hehex.

i still have the costume that i wore then. LOL.

its my treasure. lol.

anyways,

hm... what other stuff did they do.

gosh. im getting old.

I CANT REMEMBER WHAT I DID!

oh! haha

they made their own snow globe thingy.

well, it wasn snow.

was glitter.

they were given clay to make whatever they wanted,

and we helped them glue that small lil clay thingy that they made onto the container cover,

pour some glitter into the water and TADAAA!

hehex.

really cute, never made one b4. i think..

haha.

ya.

there was also a singing session too.

haha. so cute.

sang SAKURA and THE MORE WE GET TOGHETER(in malay).

hm.. yeah. that's about all i can remember. heh.

i know that tml is their last class for the hols;

their going to the animal farm. hahas!

but im not joining, I WANT TO SLEEP.

have to wake up so early. sobs. LOL.

ya ya. hahah!

it was time for the kids to return home when their parents came to pick them up at 12.

all of them left, all except one small boy, shuan.

HIS' soooooooo cute. haha.

the teachers were already running here and there cleaning the place up.

eileen too.

i wanted to close the door and saw this small boy standing at the door,

his water bottle under is right arm, his big file under the other arm, and his rojak(one of the activity, i just remembered-.-) in both of his hands.

he was standing at the door, waiting for his dad to come and pick him up.

he just stood there, looking out. waiting waiting. so cute.

i went forward and helped him take his things, and waited with him.

he was quiet, didn really talked even when i asked him questions. haha. but nvm.

so poor thing lor. haha.

after a while, i guessed he was tired of standing when he squatted on the floor.

i brought him to sit down on the chairs near by.

and i continued to wait with him, eileen joined in soon after. hahaha.

he was really adorable. haha.

ya. of course his dad came, like half an hour later. haha.

oh wells.

actually, looking at all these kids really brings back memories huh?

i was them b4. just cant remember how it was.heh.

cute cute cute.

we cleaned up after that and went for lunch.

got home at bout 3.

it kinda made me went to the photo carboard and dug out the photos of myself in kindergarden.

i found some.

so cute. found the one where i did the running bear thing.

i really miss those days.

so care free.

no exams. of course there's homework, but it isn alot and wasn difficult. heh.

so carefree. hais. oh wells.

time flys.

im just glad that after all these years, i still have my kindergarden friend, eileen, and my ex-teacher, ms cheng in touch with me!